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i went to the dentist today and i've felt like i need to hurl ever since. Flouride makes me nauseous. i have to get my first ever filling next week. at one point when i rinsed my mouth out i swear i spat out bits of me, i swear i saw bloody gum chunks in the basin.
another reason for the nausea is an incredible hangover. went out with caite last night to an mtv show thing with a bar tab....a bar tab. we both definitely took full advantage of it. ended up at someone i didnt knows house with one of the bands and some mtv people. i felt like such a groupie. it was weird. had to leave after a fairly short while tho cos caite was chucking up. i ended up having to call her family waking them up cos she was too far gone for a taxi. she was crying and chucking up and it started raining and we didnt really know where we were and then her sisters got lost. it was bout 2:30 when they got there. i reckon we would have been waiting for them for about an hour and a half but im not 100% sure cos i lose track of time easily when im drunk. her sister was pissed off. i got in the car with her until i knew where i was then i ran through the city and got a cab. i felt too drunk to even consider lying down until about 4:00am. then i had to get up at 6:00am to coach soccer. it was pretty shit. i think that's the only time ive ever drunk driven. i wasn't that bad but i definitely wasn't back to 0 BAC so i would have been in trouble if i got breathalised. i probably shouldnt have driven. oh well. i definitely will not be doing it again in a hurry. its kinda scary.
i also keep phantom smelling vomit. ive had a shower and changed my clothes and washed my hair....i didnt even throw up at all last night or today. i dont get it and its making me feel sick even more. i think it's the dentists fault. i can't get rid of the fluride. maybe i swallowed some. yech
also. last night i had another dream where someone died. i dont know who it was but i know i knew them. i was upset but i felt like it was undeserved grief or something like i wasnt allowed to be as upset as everyone else. i dont think i knew them as well as everyone else did. i think its my medication that makes me have these dreams. its known for that. the dentist (garr) was telling me when she was on it she had really vivid dreams.
anyway thats it for today. i am babysitting tonight. i think i'll go have a snooze now before i go cos dealing with those kids on 2 hrs sleep is going to be rough.
another reason for the nausea is an incredible hangover. went out with caite last night to an mtv show thing with a bar tab....a bar tab. we both definitely took full advantage of it. ended up at someone i didnt knows house with one of the bands and some mtv people. i felt like such a groupie. it was weird. had to leave after a fairly short while tho cos caite was chucking up. i ended up having to call her family waking them up cos she was too far gone for a taxi. she was crying and chucking up and it started raining and we didnt really know where we were and then her sisters got lost. it was bout 2:30 when they got there. i reckon we would have been waiting for them for about an hour and a half but im not 100% sure cos i lose track of time easily when im drunk. her sister was pissed off. i got in the car with her until i knew where i was then i ran through the city and got a cab. i felt too drunk to even consider lying down until about 4:00am. then i had to get up at 6:00am to coach soccer. it was pretty shit. i think that's the only time ive ever drunk driven. i wasn't that bad but i definitely wasn't back to 0 BAC so i would have been in trouble if i got breathalised. i probably shouldnt have driven. oh well. i definitely will not be doing it again in a hurry. its kinda scary.
i also keep phantom smelling vomit. ive had a shower and changed my clothes and washed my hair....i didnt even throw up at all last night or today. i dont get it and its making me feel sick even more. i think it's the dentists fault. i can't get rid of the fluride. maybe i swallowed some. yech
also. last night i had another dream where someone died. i dont know who it was but i know i knew them. i was upset but i felt like it was undeserved grief or something like i wasnt allowed to be as upset as everyone else. i dont think i knew them as well as everyone else did. i think its my medication that makes me have these dreams. its known for that. the dentist (garr) was telling me when she was on it she had really vivid dreams.
anyway thats it for today. i am babysitting tonight. i think i'll go have a snooze now before i go cos dealing with those kids on 2 hrs sleep is going to be rough.