This oneshot is inspired by 1TYM MV 'Without You'....but I've changed the storyline here and there, and also twist the ending........
Enjoy.. XD
Cast : Jang Ri In, Xiah Junsu, Micky Yoochun, Yesung
WITHOUT YOU
“Oppa, let me help you,” said Ri In while her hand taking a towel from Junsu’s hand.
She took the towel and hung it on the towel holder.
Junsu turned away and walked to his room. He put his right hand at the banister and started to climb the stairs slowly. It is only a five steps stairs, but he needs a lot of effort to drag his half-paralyzed left leg to the top.
“Oppa, wait up...,” he heard Ri In approached him.
“Stay where you are, I can go to my room by myself,” Junsu replied her coldly. He didn’t even look back at her.
He almost fell when he tripped over the last step, but he managed to balance himself and scaled one last step. He heard Ri In’s slight sigh that time, but he just ignored it and walked to his room.
It’s been a month after Junsu left the hospital after the accident happened, and it’s been a month since he starts to treat Ri In uncaringly. His mood is keep changing like a whirling wind each and every day.
Ri In walked to the kitchen and boiled a kettle of water to make porridge for him and tea for both of them.
She looked around while waiting for the water, and she spotted a soft ruby colored invitation on a desk beside of the television. Somebody has crumpled it up, and she knew who did that.
She fondly rubbed a platinum ring on her left ring finger. Tears start to fall from her eyes but she wiped it as quickly as it fell.
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“Hello? Oh, Yesung-a? Can I help you?” Junsu said when he noticed the voice over the line.
“Stop treating my sister like that and I mean it,” Yesung snapped in no time.
“I’ve asked you to pick her up,” Junsu replied coldly.
“And you think she’ll gladly join me home?”
The conversation went dead as Junsu didn’t answer back. Yesung closed the phone angrily and picked up his key.
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“Oppa!!”
“What? Have I said something wrong?” Yesung replied his sister.
“The marriage is off, he said that. And you still sit here, taking care of him, and pretend like you have a happy life with him?” He continued.
“I’m not saying that I’m happy, but you know I can’t leave him.” Ri In stood up.
Yesung had Ri In coming down to a café nearby Junsu’s apartment.
“Sit!” Yesung ordered her.
“Oppa. I’m not a little girl anymore. I know what I’ve been doing right now,” Ri In said in an apologizing tone and left him.
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“I don’t know what kind of evil has obsessed you,” said Yoochun hopelessly.
Junsu looked at his best friend expression and apologize.
“I don’t take apology from my friends,” said him again.
“What do you want me to do now?” Junsu asked him back.
“Changes! No no, that’s not really what I want. All I want is your old self. The Junsu that I used to know, the guy I’ve been friend with for my whole life, the guy that should walk the aisle to the altar next month,” answered Yoochun emphatically.
“You know that won’t happen,” Junsu replied.
“I don’t know how Ri In can stand you this long.” Yoochun excused himself and left Junsu alone in his room.
“She didn’t deserve your way of treating her, and you definitely not be worthy of her affection either.”
One by one, they left me.........so this is how things going to end up.
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“Oppa, please eat even a little. All you had today was that bowl of porridge this morning. I don’t want you to catch a cold,” Ri In talked him to eat the soup she had prepared for him.
“I’m not hungry.” Junsu just glanced at the tray once and continued reading the book on his hands.
“Oppa....,” Ri In sighed.
“Please leave me,” he said coldly.
“I’ll leave you if you eat, how about that? Hhmm?” Ri In tried to persuade him.
“I said I’m not hungry, why you become so annoying right now? Just leave me!” Junsu snapped at her.
Ri In stared at him in disbelief. Junsu has never talked loudly to her before.
Junsu can see how bad he has hurt Ri In, but he’s still hanging on though deep in his heart, he really want to jump and hug her, telling her how sorry he is. He’s hurting too inside.
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“Oppa, what should I do?” Ri In asked Yoochun on the phone.
She couldn’t talk to her brother, because Yesung will definitely come and drag her home if he heard what’s happened.
“If I could do anything to change him, you know I would do it right away,” said Yoochun remorsefully.
“Have you ever considering to.....ehm....give up on him?” Yoochun asked him cautiously.
“Never oppa, never. How should I live without him?”
“But he’s not the same Junsu you love. You’ll only get hurt if you insist to wait for him.”
“But oppa....”
“It’s not like I ask you to leave him right now, but it pained me to see you like this. You know Yesung is in the edge of blowing out right now.”
“Please don’t tell Yesung oppa about it.” Ri In begged.
“You’ve placed me in a really difficult position. You are both my best friend’s precious little sister and also my best friend’s fiancé.”
“I don’t know who else I can turn to right now.” Ri In’s words only came out as a whisper.
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Ri In looked into Junsu’s working room and saw that he has forgot to turn his computer off before he’s sleeping.
She saw a saved page of news on the screen.
Here’s the last update from the terrible accident that involved Kim Junsu, well - known football player, 30 km from the toll gate outside Seoul.
His fiancé, famous violin player, Jang Ri In, was with him in the white SUV car that he drove.
They both have passed the critical condition, but they suffered from a very severe injury that possibly could turn their whole life around.
The head of the doctor team reportedly said that Kim Junsu’s left leg might be half-paralyzed, and that will surely stop his career to join the national football team.
In the other hand, Jang Ri In, though she only suffered less injury than her fiancé, it has been said that the tendon in her right arm has been cut badly, so she might not be able to play the violin professionally anymore.
The accident happened after Kim Junsu, who’s driving at that time, tried to avoid a crash with a loaded truck which driving in high speed at the wrong line of the road.
The driver of the truck has been proved to be drunk that time and on police investigation right now.
Their fans have put all the effort they can to support them...........
Ri In took a deep breath and shut down the computer.
There’s one thing that the press will never found out about that accident.
They were in fight when the accident happened.
Junsu was furious over another violin player in the orchestra who’s been bluntly trying to win Ri In’s heart though he knew that Ri In has been engaged with Junsu.
Ri In always tried to comfort Junsu and assured him that everything is fine.
They’ve fought so many times because of it and their relationship has become worse and worse. On top of that, Junsu’s jealousy has taken over himself that night.
The accident might have happened even if they’re not in fight that time, but Junsu couldn’t forgive himself for that accident. He believed he could avoid the crash if he’s not loosing his concentration when he drove the car that night.
His pride is hurt, his career is ruined, and he keeps blaming himself for ruining Ri In’s life.
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Day by day passing by and everyday seemed worse than the day before.
Junsu even left her sometimes without her knowing and went home very late, drunk.
“Oppa!!!” Ri In shouted when she saw Junsu came in, leaning on Yoochun’s shoulder.
“I found him at the soju stall nearby,” said Yoochun. He’s been helping Ri In looking for Junsu each time Junsu hasn’t come home after midnight.
“Sorry to trouble you over and over again, Oppa,” said Ri In apologetically.
“Come on, he’s my best friend, more like my brother, I can’t just neglect him,” Yoochun comforted her.
“What should I do, Oppa? What should I do? Will he be better if I just leave him? Will he?” Ri In cried in frustration. Though she’s usually a tough girl, but that night she can’t stop the tears streaming down her face.
“Ehhk, hhuukk,” Junsu coughed.
“Oppa!” Ri In immediately to the sofa where Yoochun lay him down, bringing him a cup of honey tea.
“Leave me!!” Junsu snapped at her at the time he felt Ri In’s hand.
“KIM JUNSU!!!” Yoochun, who’s still there couldn’t believe how Junsu treat Ri In, the girl that he has known for his whole life.
“It’s okay, Oppa. You better go home now, it’s really late.” Ri In talked to him.
“Seriously, was that how he treats you everyday? Answer me Ri In, does he yell like that to you everyday?”
“It’s okay, Oppa, it’s okay. He’s drunk,” said Ri In.
“I’m not drunk and you,” Junsu sat up and point his finger to Ri In, “Didn’t you just said you want to leave me? GO, who hold you here?”
“YYAAHH, KIM JUNSU!!!” Yoochun approached him and grabbed his collar.
“Oppa, calm down.” Ri In separated them.
Yoochun couldn’t bear the situation much longer; he left them right away and slammed the front door.
“Oppa,” Ri In looked at Junsu, “don’t you love me anymore?”
“Stop asking useless question, Ri In. You want to leave me right? Why don’t you just go?”
“Will you be better without me? Will that make you happier? Will that make you quit drinking?” Ri In continued her question.
Junsu stayed silent for a moment and then he said, “We’re not meant to be together anymore, Ri In. Forgive me.”
Ri In stunned for what she just heard, but her tears stopped right away.
Junsu stood up and limped to his room. “Forgive me Ri In, forgive me,” he said in his heart. But after he closde the door, he knelt down and broke into tears.
“I love you Ri In, forgive me. I guess I have to live without you.”
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[2 years later]
Junsu sat by himself at the waiting room in Incheon International Airport.
He looked at the ticket in his hand.
France Air : Seoul - London
02 : 40 PM - Gate 3
He remembered every single day from the past two years.
The voice of Yesung, yelled at him in front of the closed door; the busy packing noise from Ri In’s room, and the soothing voice of Ri In saying her goodbye; those sounds still play at Junsu’s head over and over again.
“Oppa, live well, I love you.” That’s the only and the last thing he heard from Ri In.
After few months in hiding, Junsu start to reorganize his life.
He took a therapy, and though his leg couldn’t be back to its normal condition anymore, now he can walk much easier.
He also came back to school and earned a master degree in business. He joined a sports equipment company and today, he will go to London, taking his company offer to head the branch office in London.
As the final call announced through the speaker, Junsu flipped open his phone and typed a message.
A white gloved hand held the phone tightly and placed it near her heart.
A drop of tears fell on her sleek white embroidered dress, but slowly, her lips formed a fond smile.
A message just arrived, despite the sadness she has been through; she’s so relieved and happy that he’s living his life well.
My dear Ri In,
My prayers and best wishes for you and Yoochun, congratulations on your marriage.
Promise me a joyful life, I believe Yoochun wouldn’t ever cause you any tears.
And please send my deepest apology to Yesung and Yoochun.
I’ve read your letter inside the invitation, my thank you will never enough.
Thank you for forgive me, thank you for keep believing in me.
Though we couldn’t live this life together, but in the next life, I promise you my life and my heart.
Love, Junsu.
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A/N : Lots of SuYin fans gonna kill me for this oneshot, hehehe.... ^ ^