why again
you ever get that sinking feeling in your heart and no matter what you do it only gets worse as each minute ticks by? everything feels like shit right now and i only feel like its gunna get worse. and this time if it gets worse im not going to stick around to let it get better this time. if something happens this time im totally through. i cant take having my heart broken a 3rd time, especially in the same half yr. i just hope i can trust him. i just wish there wasnt another girl involved. he says there isnt but i know hes really attracted to that girl at work. and it sucks cuz he gets to see her everyday and train her. it seems like if theres a girl thats hot and also smokes he thinks he has everything in common with her and feels the need to "explore her further" ... of course if he gets to know her he'll prolly see that they really dont have that much in common... ugh. i hate feeling empty. i just dont feel right without him.. i just cant imagine spending my life without him. and just the thought of something threatening it is enough to send me into this dark state for lord knows how long. all i ever want in life is to know that im loved. and i only hope its from you. .. thats all i want..