theres something about you now that i cant quite figure out
im for certain im gunna end up being the young bride that ends up being widowed at a young age. all of my boyfriends thus far have been the "dangerous" or stupid type where they always wanna run off and do stuff thats really literally gunna get themselves killed whether it be some branch of the armed forces or just silly stuff. soooo it feels like since all my past bfs have been like that and my current one is like that that im being prepared by some almighty force for a huge heartbreak. i just realllly think im going to be "widowed" within the next like 5 years. maybe im just paranoid but im too in love to let him die and yet theres nothing i can do except cry myself to sleep every other night and be paniced with worry.