ocean doesnt touch the sand

[nacracket27]

not feelin well today. to me its still kistmus cuz i havent fallen asleep yet, so lemme say that kistmus sucked. i mean the presents were good and all and i like the presents that i made peepoles, but just too many things go wrong. my family made it xtra clear today that they hate my bf and that they want me to dump him (cept my aunt..shes cool). i just hate the fact that hes not welcome in my house, and since we are a part of each other, i dont feel welcome either. thats ONE of the reasons why i hate it here at home.. well prolly the main reason atm. at least i kinda shoved it in dads face a lil today lol. we had company coming and to "dress up" dad told me to go put the earrings and necklace he gave me on thats real expensive.. so i came back and wore the stuff that kenny gave me instead. and dad was a lil pissed bout that teehee. but also the fact that my cousin went into heart failure today didnt help (iunno if he died today or if he'll die tom..but itll be sometime soon if it hasnt already happened). at least i didnt know him really at all, its mainly feelin sorry for him and his close fam. also dad made it clear that theres a big possibility that i may not be able to have kiddies ever. stupid female organs. course also when family comes over.. im not a social person with family so that majorly sucked. i like them one at a time but not all together.. specially their cornyness... in some families its funny but mine is the most annoying thing ever. and ppl have actually come up to me and have told me that lol. on top of all that i was made fun of sooo many times over dinner. even tho i know they were all joking its just that when you have alot of things built up lil things get to you, ya know? another thing is kennys best friend and friend of mine too's mamas in the hospital. she went there christmas eve. i think she should be fine tho. just a blockage in her tummy that they could prolly fix.. iunno tho, just hope she feels better soon tho.

ive gotten hardly any sleep these past like 8ish days. im taking these hormone pills that make me dizzy and awake alll night. the most sleep ive gotten lately is a lil 2 hr nap at kennys house today. at least the pills havent given me cramps lately .. those suck lol. but it is making my right boob bigger so i kinda like them, if only they could make my left boob bigger too. hmph.