all i know

[nacracket27]

christmas sucks.. dads been drinkin everyday and yellin at me most of the time for no reason. i tried sleeping christmas away but even then he yelled at me for that, so i try to join in on the "family fun" so then he yells at me again. and then when ppl ask me questions my dad basically says "dont talk to her because she has no worthy opinions and shes like a stump" .. i dont remember a christmas being any different than that. i hate the holiday seasons and anything that reminds me of them. im just glad thats the last christmas i ever getta spend with "family" .. sigh, ima prolly have the hardest time when david leaves to do navy stuffs, but i guess out of any girl ima prolly be most prepared for it sein how im used to someone not being there for me emotionally. and who knows.. i might have kids then that would keep me company. i just have dreams of me having like post maternal depression and like killing someone lol. oh and ill have my puppy nelson to keep me company. but i dont see how our schedules will work out.. bc he'll be gone for 6 months and back for a yr to do it all over again.. but when hes back he'll be in diff training dealys over the US. and ima try to be some kinda doc and docs are kinda more stationary ppls that dont move around. iunno i feel sick.

i bruise you
you bruise me
we both bruise too easily
too easily to let it show
i love you and thats all i know
all my plans fallen through
all my plans depend on you
depend on you to health and grow
i love you and thats all i know
endings always come so fast but pass so slowly
i love you and thats all i know