Tangled, stressed out mind
My mind is in such a tangle nowadays. I will try to untangle it a little by writing here. Organize it all some.
Hmmm.
The jobs. I'm back at the kindergarten, now cleaning alone. The job takes 3 hours and 45 minutes. Well, that's on paper. In reality, it's never taken me less than 4 hours and 20 minutes so far. I need to do better. But the problem is, if you're gonna do a good job 3,75 hours isn't quite enough. And sloppy is not my thing. Still.. I know I'm a bit too slow. If I get it down to 4 hours I will be happy.
So.. it's 4+ hours. Plus travelling time, which is 2-2,5 hours (total). So.. 6-7 hours a day. And then I have my other job, the transcribing, to do. I should be working at least 3 hours/day with it (I haven't been). I also need to keep up with my training and cooking, cleaning etc. And study driving theory. Somehow it's not really working out for me. It doesn't help that I feel awfully undisciplined at the moment. I'm so stressed out it's insane.
Driving theory. Mostly I stress out about this. I have a date. For the test. It's on the 29th. Less than two weeks left! And I have hardly studied AT ALL! :O I panic. So much! I have to go to my driving school next week to do the preparatory tests, but before that I want to do the tests which are on their website. And I need to study at least a little for them or else it's not much of a point. I need to do that TODAY.
Failing the test on the 29th is out of the question. The new rules, which require you to take the driving test within two weeks of taking the theory test, come into effect on September 1st. For me, who haven't taken a single driving lesson for a year (it's unbelievable, I know!), this is not an option. I simply have to pass this test before September.
Help..? ._.
Not feeling well. I don't know if it's the stress that's really getting to me, but I don't feel good at all. I am so tired, every day. I sleep too much. I turn all three (!) alarms off in the morning and go back to sleep for an hour or two. When I wake up I feel like I could sleep for another nine hours. As I write this I'm so tired I'm about to fall asleep on the keyboard. I feel a bit sick and I have blisters (afte) in my mouth and even in my throat. It makes eating a painful experience :(
Hand(s). However, what I worry most about when it comes to my body is my hands. It's not better. The pain is not gone. Rather, I suspect it's getting worse. The transcribing business hasn't made it all easier of course. A couple of weeks ago it was so bad that I had to use an anti-inflammatory gel for a week. I've been training at the physiotherapist's for a year, and even though I've only been there once a week lately (because of summer opening hours), I can safely say that it hasn't helped me. The acupuncture might have made it slightly better (I'm not sure) for a while, but it was only temporary. Nothing helps in the long run.
And now, as I said, I suspect it's getting worse. When I wake up in the mornings, my fingers feel stiff. Actually, it's not just in the mornings anymore. They hurt a bit too. As I wrote in May, I had my blood taken to rule out any rheumatic disease. Around that time I also experienced my hands occasionally going numb. Seems like it wasn't anything rheumatic, as they never got back to me. With my fingers going stiff, I don't know what to think. Maybe carpal tunnel syndrome? I NEED to have an x-ray now. It's time to move on with this. The training is obviously not helping.
Bike sabotage. The burglary today is not the only sabotage this week. My tyre was flat AGAIN earlier this week! Someone keeps damaging my (and other people's) bikes in the bicycle storage room here >__< It makes me so friggin mad. I'll have to call the landlord about it. It can't go on like this.
Danne is coming here on Wednesday. I'm hoping he will help me get some work done, with the transcribing and the driving theory. I miss him so much :(
In other news, my latest obsession is boiled carrots (mmm~) and autumn is really here now. It's so cold. Gah.. I really have to study now.
Hmmm.
The jobs. I'm back at the kindergarten, now cleaning alone. The job takes 3 hours and 45 minutes. Well, that's on paper. In reality, it's never taken me less than 4 hours and 20 minutes so far. I need to do better. But the problem is, if you're gonna do a good job 3,75 hours isn't quite enough. And sloppy is not my thing. Still.. I know I'm a bit too slow. If I get it down to 4 hours I will be happy.
So.. it's 4+ hours. Plus travelling time, which is 2-2,5 hours (total). So.. 6-7 hours a day. And then I have my other job, the transcribing, to do. I should be working at least 3 hours/day with it (I haven't been). I also need to keep up with my training and cooking, cleaning etc. And study driving theory. Somehow it's not really working out for me. It doesn't help that I feel awfully undisciplined at the moment. I'm so stressed out it's insane.
Driving theory. Mostly I stress out about this. I have a date. For the test. It's on the 29th. Less than two weeks left! And I have hardly studied AT ALL! :O I panic. So much! I have to go to my driving school next week to do the preparatory tests, but before that I want to do the tests which are on their website. And I need to study at least a little for them or else it's not much of a point. I need to do that TODAY.
Failing the test on the 29th is out of the question. The new rules, which require you to take the driving test within two weeks of taking the theory test, come into effect on September 1st. For me, who haven't taken a single driving lesson for a year (it's unbelievable, I know!), this is not an option. I simply have to pass this test before September.
Help..? ._.
Not feeling well. I don't know if it's the stress that's really getting to me, but I don't feel good at all. I am so tired, every day. I sleep too much. I turn all three (!) alarms off in the morning and go back to sleep for an hour or two. When I wake up I feel like I could sleep for another nine hours. As I write this I'm so tired I'm about to fall asleep on the keyboard. I feel a bit sick and I have blisters (afte) in my mouth and even in my throat. It makes eating a painful experience :(
Hand(s). However, what I worry most about when it comes to my body is my hands. It's not better. The pain is not gone. Rather, I suspect it's getting worse. The transcribing business hasn't made it all easier of course. A couple of weeks ago it was so bad that I had to use an anti-inflammatory gel for a week. I've been training at the physiotherapist's for a year, and even though I've only been there once a week lately (because of summer opening hours), I can safely say that it hasn't helped me. The acupuncture might have made it slightly better (I'm not sure) for a while, but it was only temporary. Nothing helps in the long run.
And now, as I said, I suspect it's getting worse. When I wake up in the mornings, my fingers feel stiff. Actually, it's not just in the mornings anymore. They hurt a bit too. As I wrote in May, I had my blood taken to rule out any rheumatic disease. Around that time I also experienced my hands occasionally going numb. Seems like it wasn't anything rheumatic, as they never got back to me. With my fingers going stiff, I don't know what to think. Maybe carpal tunnel syndrome? I NEED to have an x-ray now. It's time to move on with this. The training is obviously not helping.
Bike sabotage. The burglary today is not the only sabotage this week. My tyre was flat AGAIN earlier this week! Someone keeps damaging my (and other people's) bikes in the bicycle storage room here >__< It makes me so friggin mad. I'll have to call the landlord about it. It can't go on like this.
Danne is coming here on Wednesday. I'm hoping he will help me get some work done, with the transcribing and the driving theory. I miss him so much :(
In other news, my latest obsession is boiled carrots (mmm~) and autumn is really here now. It's so cold. Gah.. I really have to study now.