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The last month or so my relationship with brandon has been very up and down. Today I found out that he was getting shipped out to florida to help with the hurricane. He would be leaving sunday and staying for 45 days. The thing is that I close all weekend long so I wouldn't be able to say goodbye. He told me this before I went to work, so I got someone to pick up my shift tonight so I could spend some time with brandon. While hanging out we received news that b/c of certain problems he's been having with his knee/leg and his whole skin thing that he wouldn't be leaving. I feel so incredibly selfish for being happy that he's not going, b/c I know that he would be helping people. I'm also incredibly scared b/c I really like this guy. I'm scared that I've let my guard down and let him in. I'm scared that I've finally let someone love me and that I've finally let myself fall in love. The 8th of nov we will have been together for 6 months... god that's not long at all and i've grown so attached to this guy. I've never been good at relationships so I've surprised myself with this one thus far. I'm not sure of what to expect in the future *sigh*