you can't cauterize a wound that won't stop bleeding...

[nachos_n_cheeze]

this was something i honestly wanted. i actually wanted us to break up. only cuz things weren't great. i didn't want us ending up hating each other for stupid shit. but now it has happened... it sux. i hate it. i fucking hate it. i couldn't get her out of my head last night. no matter what, she was there. and you know what. fuck you guys that think i'm stupid. fuck you guys that have heard me say i'm tired of our relationship, and want to shove that in my face. but in all fucking reality. i love her. that's the truth. we just have kinks that constantly reoccure. if we could just change those, and make a real attempt. then i'd be the happiest fuck face here. for love, i don't want anyone else. i want her. she means alot to me.

i can't put in to words how bad i feel. So this is what it tastes like alone...

i give up writing... it's getting me no where but frustrated cuz i can't illustrate my thoughts/feelings...

and BTW, anyone that wants to fucking tell me otherwise how to feel... they can shove it up their ass and shut the fuck up...

'honestly,
i'd give anything,
to be with you right now'