I don't think she needs me, quite half as much as i know i need her
i love her... so much. we have so many memories, and we're just making more as we go along. it's crazy! i remember our first--sad to say--'attempt' at making out. lol... i fucked that one up horribly. it was her birthday, Feb 26. and we had just been going out for 3 weeks. well we're on our way back from the Coronado battle of the bands and she decides to kiss me. i wasn't prepared for some reason. don't ask. only a select few know why. and yea. Paola said i made a weird noise. i just found that out tonight! lol but god i fucked that up. i felt all stupid afterwards. i knew she was trying not to laugh! i was right! haha! ...wait... that's not something to be proud of. lol... ANYWAYS... i have another fond moment of us. but it was a couple months earlier. but that shall remain unsaid.... the time at the park is my fondest of memories thus far. it was a tad bit cold. but things were just perfect. the nervousness. butterflies. the sky. everything. it was just right....except for the morons arguing that messed things up a bit and killed the moment cuz we were too busy laughing our asses off. haha. but yea... it's all been crazy. we're going on 10 months. and if you wanna subtract 2 days cuz of our lil hiatus... be my guest. but damn. alot has happened to us since i asked her out Feb. 5th. i honestly never thought it was gonna be like this. i never knew that i would love and care for her as much as i do now. i don't think i knew what i was getting myself into when i asked her out. i don't mean that in a bad way, but i didn't expect this rush of emotions that i would experience over the months. i'm one lucky son of a bitch. and i love it. but what i think i'm trying to get to is that we've come a long ways since week one, day one. and just reflecting on it now just makes me think wow. maybe we got something that can go in the long run? who knows. but i'll just take this day by day like i have been doing.