Take me with you, and show me all life's splenders
i'm confused, so very confused. i don't know. seriously i don't. that may sound stupid and all, but i'm lost. i think too much. i want to scream my lungs out. let it all out. scream I LOVE YOU right in her face. let her know how i honestly feel. this smile i put on today was all show. a mask to cover my weakness. to cover the hurt. to cover the hatred i have for myself now. i've been beating myself since sunday for this. i hate it. i hate seeing you all down. i hate avoiding the place we ate lunch the past months. i hate dialing your number and resting my trembling finger on the last 2. i hate wanting to talk to you, and not doing it, but just turning away when i see you. i hate it all. i want it back to the way it was, 5 months ago. everything was innocent. everything was, perfect. i loved it, i loved you. i need help... but i think... i need you back... back here. in my arms once again. i want the warmth of your body against mine. i want your arms to embrace me once again, your hand intertwined with mine, to hear your laughter at something stupid i said. i miss it all. your lips pressed against mine... i want you back...