A destiny.
Life is about masks and dramas. Children love masks and it is a huge deception to think that one shrugs off this role play as one grows into an adult. Adults have more the need for masks than children have. We can be the philosopher, the critic, the actor, the miserablist, the joker, the builder, the sex slave, the nun, the christian, the anti-christian, the atheist, the agnostic, the existentialist, anything at all but at no point in our existence is any of these things an end; they are merely means to an end! A mask is a means - even childen know that!
For me, it was the drama and mask of the pop star. I identified myself with my pop icons. And even now I still identify and look for sign-posts. The people whom I admire the most are always those in whom I see within me as my mask; as a means to living out the drama of life.
Now a test is upon me. I`m grown older; more wiser; more stricter with myself. I`m altogether more cynical than I used to be. I don`t know my destiny but I always anticipated great things would happen to me. Every stage in my life became significant whenever I learned of a new mask; a new drame - then the pop icon now the philosopher and nihilist. I am moved, it seems, by controversy and some people think me impossible. I harbour dangerous views and read dangerous books. I love all things dark and terrifying. I still have much to learn and perhaps much to unlearn.
‘Being’ cannot be known to us because we only live in ‘being’ not outside of it. Insight into this ‘being’ is possible but only from moment to moment [‘being’ is in the physical corporeal] and when it becomes a memory; some kind of knowledge, it is no longer your being; it is past; gone. All knowledge is dead.