Update of Updateiness

[naamah_darling]

Wow, so. I had a whole post written, and it got et. We made goal on The Shadow Princess, which is awesome. I didn't think we would make it this time, and we did, and I want to thank everyone who donated or signal-boosted or otherwise helped out with good vibes/goat sacrifices/etc. Thank you.

Smooch has been to the vet having Grand Adventures.

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[naamah_darling]

*hugs* Oh, sugarplum, no. I'm so sorry you were ever in that place. That sounds like the absolute literal pits. I'm glad you are better off now. I am so genuinely glad.

I am actually really glad you said all this. Thank you. I'm not upset, or hurt, or anything.

((I'm clipping out a huge thing I wrote and will put it in another reply.))

"Your life just terrified me at a really primal level." On the one hand, that quote taken out of context is awesome, and that's maybe the nicest thing anyone's said about me in a long time. *wipes tear* On the other, for different reasons, goddamn, it was and is fucking terrifying to me, too, on a daily basis. A lot has happened, no doubt, since you stopped reading, and most of it hasn't been what I'd call great. I'm in a down phase now, not able to work, not able to really even play. Just hanging on, because it's worth the struggle.

I could go on, but I'm in urgent need of a shower and then bed, and my asshole cat will no doubt want to be reassured that I still love him even though he steals my earplugs and squirts his nasty butt-musk on my bed and my hairy yeti cat will no doubt want to be scritched and told he is beautiful despite being thoroughly ludicrous.

You are awesome. Don't ever doubt that.

We aren't perfect, but we can be strong.

Thank you.

You sincerely and truly don't have to send me anything, but since the assholes at the SSDI office think I'm worth less than $10,000 a year alive, I will never turn down money. naamah@gmail.com is my personal paypal. If you send anything, make sure I have your address. If I can get my shit together, I would like to send a card or something.

(Would that picture of Tazendra be this one? It's my favorite, and I have it framed beside my bed, next to the box her bones are in.)

[stella_down]

yep, that's the picture. I was actually just backing up my files from my old computer and found that and the one of you at the sci-fi group, where you're raising your hand like someone's calling roll (the file name is literally "do this").