Rape is a "pre-existing condition." Enjoy maybe getting AIDS.Sometimes I want to resign from the human race just for the pleasure of saying "I have nothing in common with you shitfuckers. I hope you die in agony. Alone. Except for those 3d6 priapic wild pigs
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i say true: insurance people *don't* take the Hippocratic Oath. they have *zero* obligation, in their eyes, to anyone except stockholders.
i have PTSD. i have PTSD partially because i raped as a child. as a child, with my father in the Air Force. as a child, with my father in the Air Force, on base.
the Air Force declined to prosecute, and then (after my parents were split up and my mother remarried, and my step-father started in on me) CHAMPUS refused to *pay* for any treatment at all. because "PTSD is something that soldiers and sailors develope from living in hellish conditions. children cannot suffer Hell". CANNOT, they say.
and since then until i started at OSU again when i was 30, i have not had a single bit of "health insurance" that would cover treatment. i was *denied* treatment for OTHER things, like fibromalgia, because apparantly child abuse and abuse-created PTSD are pre-existing conditions that can cause fibromalgia.
if it weren't for the fact that Ohio, specifically, had (almost a decade ago, it's been torn apart now) a fairly-easy-to-use Mental Health program, i would have killed myself. literally.
and the damned PTSD is *still* giving me insurance fits - every month, OSU's insurance tries to claim that my pain management doctor is treating the PTSD because he gives me Halcion to make me sleep because chronic pain fucks with sleep. EVERY. MONTH. i have to call them and fight with them. they say "well, normally sedatives are given to help a patient deal with mental health issues" and i say "well, in this case they are to help me deal with chronic pain issues" and they say "oh, you have fibromalgia, probably because you are depressed and claim to have PTSD" and i *DON'T* say "CLAIM?!" i take a huge breath and i say "NO THE CAUSALITY OF THAT IS BACKWARDS. i am depressed because I AM IN CHRONIC PAIN. and if you don't fix this i WILL get a lawyer". and i am *this* close to doing it, too, because i am godsdamned sick of having this same fight every single month. and because they pre-approved the latest surgery, and *THEN* denied payment AFTER the surgery, because in their opinion, surgery to remove things that are dead and don't work anymore isn't "medically necessary". but six square inches of the lining of my hip had been torn to shreds and had NO bloodflow and were dead flesh causing pain. it was fix that or give me a total hip replacement. i don't *want* a replacement, i am only 32. bastards.
erm. rant provided courtesy of CHAPMUS and BC/BS, who *started* this "PTSD doesn't exist in children" merry-go-round when i was SIX.
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The whole children can't know hell thing is a pile of steaming horse shit. What the fuck were they even THINKING?!
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i could be wrong. that's how i interpret how i remember it today. and i have run into that since -
you have PTSD - where you in the military? oh, then it's NOT PTSD". sigh
sigh.
sorry for ranting. you just... you are a *safe* place to me, doppelganger :) and so it was a safe place that was discussing this particular thing that i can't even MENTION in other places, so...yeah.
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Yeah, thanks, Aetna. Finally leaving you fuckwits!
And, my mother thinks I'm nuts for wanting to go into counseling for a career. 'Cause kids are so well-adjusted and happy, doncherknow.
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counseling is a good deed, and we need more. it might break your heart, but you will know you are doing something good. is that crazy? does it matter? sometimes i think Moms just don't *want* to see reality - every mother i know says that, for instance, abuse is the exception, not the rule. if only... good luck, i send Good Thoughts to you!
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I do know what you mean about some moms not wanting to see reality. I can personally say that denying the existence of a problem doesn't, in fact, make it go away, and causes more problems, and refusing to see another way causes hella problems.
Psych is really interesting to me, so long as I don't get into research or clinical heavy stuff; then, I'm bored witless and grouchy. Give me somebody needing a listening ear or a warm presence, and I'm there.
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