Depressed!

Aug 23, 2004 21:57

FINALLY! I'm updating this journal. I have been pretty busy with school and work. It seems like my life schedule is going to school for 8 hrs then going to work for 6 then comming home taking a shower then doing homework!! then guess what I start all over the next day. WOW thats the life exciting huh? Well nothing new has been going on in my life. Like I already said I'am in school, my senior year, OH YEA!! Cant wait till I graduate, I HATE SCHOOL! I just want to get out of highschool and all the stress and drama it brings my way!

So I am depressed, why well because of two things, school and my . Let me explain. appearance, Well first of all I got my TAKS scores back well not so good. If you dont know what the TAKS test is well basically its a test you have to take to determine if your graduate or not. The first time I took it which was last year in April I passed the English and History one and failed Science and Math(DUH) Well i re-took the Science and Math one this Summer and I got my scores back and I passed the Science one and failed the Math by 10 points, I have two more chances to pass the Math test and If I dont pass I dont graduate, Im just stressing because I really want to pass it to show my family I can do it and graduate, as well as proving to my self I can do it if I try and work my ass off. So I take the test again in Jan so you all wish me luck, any body want to help me out? Let me know hehe

Second reason Im depressed is I hate my body! I feel fat, gross and UGLY!! I eat alot for no reason. I eat when im bored I eat when I see food I like such as like 2 bags of Famous Amos cookies haha! I just hate how I look. I wanna change not for anyone else but for myself so I can like myself, I dont think its a matter of "Accepting myself," because I dont think this is myself I just I dont know hehe I just cant stand how I look, Im disgusted, so how i fix that well I dont know but I will find out!

Well thats it for now
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