If tomorrow never comes, will I ever know that I was in love?
Wow. I have a whole new outlook on life. I have everything I need and more, and I don't know why it took this long to realize it. I've sat here with mhp for the past 2 hours just crying, over everything and anything. Ok, tonight I could have literally died. We got too crazy and happy and I laughed and started choking until i was about to pass out b/c i couldn't breathe...and then we came in and watched this movie that really made you think. We don't know how long we have on this earth and you shouldn't just let it pass you by. God's really trying to get my attention. We can't put things off...especially your relationship with God. I have everything...and i was sitting around feeling sorry for myself for no good reason. Yes, there are a lot of things I would like to say to certain people, and it's hard to find the right words to say to get your point across, but you don't know how long you have to express yourself. I'm being so hipocritical right now b/c there's one person that means the world to me, and I can't bring myself to tell them. But if I don't, I may be missing something, and I may never get another opportunity to tell them.
I kept looking for this fairy-tale to happen, but if I go out looking for it-it's not going to happen. If I let God have his way with my life instead of me thinking i know whats best for me..I would be a whole lot better off. It's amazing how much can happen over a week. I need to stop trying to grow up so fast. We don't remember days or years...we remember moments.
Mary Helen.
I'm so glad I have someone like you that I can talk to and share everything. It seems like yesterday we were sitting in your living room talking at your 14th b'day party, never even thinking that we'd still be friends, sharing all of this. We've grown up together. Everything that's happened over the past few years...we've gone through together. It seems like yesterday and yet..it feels like years ago..we seemed so young, SOO much has happend over the past year I don't even know where to start. This summer we became so close. Actually, a lot happened this summer, and I can't say that I "regret" anything because everything happens for a reason, but I'm not sayin there weren't a million things I could have and possibly should have done differently. I've never openly cried and shared everything that i shared with you, with anyone else before. We seriously have something that people search for their entire lives..and we've taken our friendship for granted for so long. I can't believe how emotional tonight was, but there's something I think I might have left out. To you, to him, to everyone.
Life is what you make it.
God is real.
Love is real.
Don't ever take anything or anyone for granted. Don't put anything off for tommorow. We're not promised tommorrow. But we are promised an eternity in heaven if we live our life by God's will.
I'm not sure if I even made my point, I'm just rambling. I'm so confused..but at the same time, i have life all figured out. I don't need guy to make me happy, I don't need material possesions to really live...All I need is God.
If anyone ever has anything to say to me at all...don't hesitate. Say it. I won't get mad..i won't get weirded out..and I'm not going to judge you. I can honestly promise anyone that i can relate or at least understand each and every problem that someone has at this moment.
IM me...xtinatinabobina or tinacookie241.
All I need to do now is follow my own advice. I took you for granted. And I'm sorry. But I can't let another day pass by without letting you know this. I'm sick of being afraid.
I'll leave this entry with this one thought in your head, If you had one day left to live...You would do everything in your power to make sure you did and said everything you've ever wanted...you'd pray...you call on God to save you. If You're life were to end..can you honestly say you'd have no regrets...would you go to heaven...do your loved ones know that you love them...do they know how much you cared? Treat every day as if it were your last, because it may very well be.
If I had one thing left to say here on this earth,
My famous last words would be:
God Is the way, the truth, and the life...forever.