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I've confronted a demon from my past.
I finally confronted Kim about her apparent pregnancy to me. The one where she told me a week in that she was having twins. So when I started pulling the hard questions, the responses kept getting more and more far fetched. It's the same shit. She's a compulsive liar. She hates herself and her life and so she has to lie to make it seem like she's not as miserable as she really is.
Now the tricky part is that I want to see the best in everyone. So part of me wants to believe that she isn't a compulsive liar, that maybe she was carrying my child or children. Either way, I still feel like I was used and mislead in order to achieve what she wanted, which was a caretaker for her shithouse flat in Parapara-fucking-umu so she would have somewhere to live when she came out of prison for defrauding her mother out of $184,000.
She told me once that the defrauding wasn't her doing, that it was mostly Cliff's (her ex of the time). But I know for a fact that's bullshit because they day I met the both of them, long before the 'baby', they used a cheque to pull approximately $7000 from her mother's account and smiled as she explained how she was able to pull it off.
Does this sound like a person who was been surrounded by a series of higly unfortunate events?
Or does it sound more like the work of a compusive liar, serial defrauder and black-widow spider?
I only hope she doesn't fuck too many people's lives up on her quest to create the perfect faux life for herself, including that of her daughter and husband - both of whom mean more to me than she ever will.
(cont...)
I received this email a few minutes after blocking and deleting said parasite from my MSN forever...
Here goes...
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You probably won't even read this, and if you do great,
I feel as if I should express myself to the comments you made about me.
I didn't use you, you were the one that used me,.. hello I don't think I was the one that cheated on you. All I did was except the fact that you didn't want to be with me, and moved on.
However, if you felt that I fed you bullshit, then fine, feel that way, there isn't anything I can say or do to prove otherwise.
I am not denying the fact that I haven't lied before in my life, becasue I have, and over the last year I have been working through the problems with someone so that I feel as if I don't have to tell people what they want to hear and that I can actually have my own opinion.
Maybe I will be alone at some point in my life, that is fine by me, I love being on my own, not having anyone to depend on or to depend on me, it is a great feeling , but then I feel selfish for having time for myself.
One last thing, I hardly get anything I want, its called having a family, you give and you take, you communicate and sacrifises need to be made. I hope you learn this one day.
I will leave it here, and I am sure you have put me on block so I don't expect to hear from you, but hey, if you want to keep in contact, then great, if not. then au revoir. Best of luck for your future.
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To which I responded...
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I NEVER cheated on you. Besides, if what you just said is true, then you didn't really want to be with me anyway, so why feed me some bullshit story about 'definately twins' if you didn't want me to be there? You know I would've supported any child I helped create without neccesarily being with the mother, so you should've been honest with me, rather than squirreling it all away in a journal.
And dont presume to lecture me about sacrifice for your family. I gave up my entire LIFE to be with my family and suffered as a result. I have gone through loneliness and misery and hardship. I have put my family first for the past 9 months, trading away everything I loved about living in Wellington, all my close personal friendships, the one person who could've made me happy and a job where I was respected and valued, so I know as well as anyone what self-sacrifice for your family means.
You told me once that you were terrified of being alone, so there goes that theory. Either you were lying then or you are lying now. Either way, you're still a liar. Dont wish me happiness, or good luck, or good fortune. I've made my own and I certainly dont need any from the likes of you.
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A bit harsh maybe? I still feel better, like a giant pus-filled wound has finally erupted and let a giant ball of rotting poison out of the depths of my being. I'd like to know what others can make of this (definately one-sided) account... Opinions? Comments?
I finally confronted Kim about her apparent pregnancy to me. The one where she told me a week in that she was having twins. So when I started pulling the hard questions, the responses kept getting more and more far fetched. It's the same shit. She's a compulsive liar. She hates herself and her life and so she has to lie to make it seem like she's not as miserable as she really is.
Now the tricky part is that I want to see the best in everyone. So part of me wants to believe that she isn't a compulsive liar, that maybe she was carrying my child or children. Either way, I still feel like I was used and mislead in order to achieve what she wanted, which was a caretaker for her shithouse flat in Parapara-fucking-umu so she would have somewhere to live when she came out of prison for defrauding her mother out of $184,000.
She told me once that the defrauding wasn't her doing, that it was mostly Cliff's (her ex of the time). But I know for a fact that's bullshit because they day I met the both of them, long before the 'baby', they used a cheque to pull approximately $7000 from her mother's account and smiled as she explained how she was able to pull it off.
Does this sound like a person who was been surrounded by a series of higly unfortunate events?
Or does it sound more like the work of a compusive liar, serial defrauder and black-widow spider?
I only hope she doesn't fuck too many people's lives up on her quest to create the perfect faux life for herself, including that of her daughter and husband - both of whom mean more to me than she ever will.
(cont...)
I received this email a few minutes after blocking and deleting said parasite from my MSN forever...
Here goes...
====
You probably won't even read this, and if you do great,
I feel as if I should express myself to the comments you made about me.
I didn't use you, you were the one that used me,.. hello I don't think I was the one that cheated on you. All I did was except the fact that you didn't want to be with me, and moved on.
However, if you felt that I fed you bullshit, then fine, feel that way, there isn't anything I can say or do to prove otherwise.
I am not denying the fact that I haven't lied before in my life, becasue I have, and over the last year I have been working through the problems with someone so that I feel as if I don't have to tell people what they want to hear and that I can actually have my own opinion.
Maybe I will be alone at some point in my life, that is fine by me, I love being on my own, not having anyone to depend on or to depend on me, it is a great feeling , but then I feel selfish for having time for myself.
One last thing, I hardly get anything I want, its called having a family, you give and you take, you communicate and sacrifises need to be made. I hope you learn this one day.
I will leave it here, and I am sure you have put me on block so I don't expect to hear from you, but hey, if you want to keep in contact, then great, if not. then au revoir. Best of luck for your future.
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To which I responded...
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I NEVER cheated on you. Besides, if what you just said is true, then you didn't really want to be with me anyway, so why feed me some bullshit story about 'definately twins' if you didn't want me to be there? You know I would've supported any child I helped create without neccesarily being with the mother, so you should've been honest with me, rather than squirreling it all away in a journal.
And dont presume to lecture me about sacrifice for your family. I gave up my entire LIFE to be with my family and suffered as a result. I have gone through loneliness and misery and hardship. I have put my family first for the past 9 months, trading away everything I loved about living in Wellington, all my close personal friendships, the one person who could've made me happy and a job where I was respected and valued, so I know as well as anyone what self-sacrifice for your family means.
You told me once that you were terrified of being alone, so there goes that theory. Either you were lying then or you are lying now. Either way, you're still a liar. Dont wish me happiness, or good luck, or good fortune. I've made my own and I certainly dont need any from the likes of you.
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A bit harsh maybe? I still feel better, like a giant pus-filled wound has finally erupted and let a giant ball of rotting poison out of the depths of my being. I'd like to know what others can make of this (definately one-sided) account... Opinions? Comments?