Thank You.
Walking up the red carpet it struck me how deserted the place was, I'm so used to the crowd, the butterflies that fill my stomache and make my body tremble, they were there, yet without the crowds it seemed sureal.
I think it was having Mum and Dad there, with Bella that made it seem all that more unreal. Mum held my hand giving me the reassurance that I needed, I'm... I'm so painfully panicy in public. Russell called me just before I left home, telling me to keep my chin up and not to cry, even Danielle got on the phone and wished me luck.
Bella was excited jumping around this was her first time at the Oscars and she was so humble walking up that carpet I wanted to pick her up and squeeze the life out of her I was so proud.
I miss Naomi and Heath, they called earlier today from Australia to wish me luck and send their love. The have Ned Kelly starting down under in a week and couldn't make it back to LA, not that I truely believe they wanted to. Toni called too and hearing my neice and nephew calling out "Auntie Nic" in the back ground brought a tear to my eye.
I sat beside Mum all night with Dad and Bella behind us, mum kept squeezing my hand as first Harrison Ford, then Calista Flockhart spoke to me, the butterflies just grew and grew, even Ed Harrison told me he could almost see them ready to take flight. I laughed.
Tonight, when they called my name... in one way I felt privilaged, honoured and so proud to have made it this far. To win recognition from my peers, it is an honour. Then my thoughts filled with those who are fighting and I wanted... no I needed to let them know that we believe in them, even if we believe in little else.
I cried, I never ment to. The emotions flooding every corner of my mind, I couldn't think, couldn't feel anything but the butterflies the nerves as they gripped me. And as I stood there looking out into the audience all I could see was my mother and my daughter watching me.
I knew in that moment I had finally made my mother prouder than she has ever been and for the first time I saw more than the love of a daughter for her mother in Bella's eyes. I saw admiration and I saw pride. Nothing will ever take that away from me. No matter what the future brings.
I think it was having Mum and Dad there, with Bella that made it seem all that more unreal. Mum held my hand giving me the reassurance that I needed, I'm... I'm so painfully panicy in public. Russell called me just before I left home, telling me to keep my chin up and not to cry, even Danielle got on the phone and wished me luck.
Bella was excited jumping around this was her first time at the Oscars and she was so humble walking up that carpet I wanted to pick her up and squeeze the life out of her I was so proud.
I miss Naomi and Heath, they called earlier today from Australia to wish me luck and send their love. The have Ned Kelly starting down under in a week and couldn't make it back to LA, not that I truely believe they wanted to. Toni called too and hearing my neice and nephew calling out "Auntie Nic" in the back ground brought a tear to my eye.
I sat beside Mum all night with Dad and Bella behind us, mum kept squeezing my hand as first Harrison Ford, then Calista Flockhart spoke to me, the butterflies just grew and grew, even Ed Harrison told me he could almost see them ready to take flight. I laughed.
Tonight, when they called my name... in one way I felt privilaged, honoured and so proud to have made it this far. To win recognition from my peers, it is an honour. Then my thoughts filled with those who are fighting and I wanted... no I needed to let them know that we believe in them, even if we believe in little else.
I cried, I never ment to. The emotions flooding every corner of my mind, I couldn't think, couldn't feel anything but the butterflies the nerves as they gripped me. And as I stood there looking out into the audience all I could see was my mother and my daughter watching me.
I knew in that moment I had finally made my mother prouder than she has ever been and for the first time I saw more than the love of a daughter for her mother in Bella's eyes. I saw admiration and I saw pride. Nothing will ever take that away from me. No matter what the future brings.