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so last weekend i visited the dream college (kansas city art institute in kansas city, missouri) and it was so amazing. i have not stopped thinking about it since then. it's a really small campus in the middle of two nice museums, hills, and pretty houses, and has around 600 enrolled students?
it's the college that gave me the most scholarship money; right now the tuition is down to ~$18,000 compared to the original ~$41,000. the cost of living in kansas city is also extremely low, which is a plus after freshmen year. i really hope that i end up going, and if i were in complete control of it, i would be. unfortunately we're poor so money matters. :/
i'm also going through some stuff with my dad lately. last time i went to stay with him, he brought me back and mom gave him some of my medical bills for my physical therapy and basically he flipped a shit. i kind of fled from the room because the conversation was getting pretty heated, and when i walk out dad was storming out of the house and slammed the door without saying goodbye to me.
he's a furniture representative for several different manufacturers, and it used to be a really good business until 9/11 rolled around and he hasn't really been getting the same amount of money he used to. however, he still earns a lot more than mom does; he has a really nice town house in downtown dallas, is able to travel frequently, and buy a lot more than we can. he mentioned to me on this same weekend that he was thinking about going to for a wide screen tv (and a few hours later he told mom he can't pay that much for my medical insurance; gee).
so i found out that he apparently has not been paying my mom his full amount of child support for a while now. he was supposed to sell his town house to make up for it, but he took it off the market last month.
right now i really feel like a huge financial burden. i feel like once i graduate from high school and he's no longer obligated to do anything else, i'll be out of the picture. if that's the case, then he won't be there to help my mom out with KCAI, because he's not legally responsible for my college education if it's out of state.
and i'm starting to feel it with my mom too; i mean, no matter which college i end up going to, i have to by a macbook pro. i added up the price of the macbook plus the software i'd need and the end result was her freaking out. it's at the point where she's the only one who can do the financial aid and i'm the only one who can do the scholarships and we both need support/help from someone, but can't get it from the other person. we're fighting a lot more than we have been, and it's starting to really upset me.
anyway yeah that's a disjointed what's-up-with-my-life right now moving on
Ever since 8th grade, I've had this fascination with assassins and hitmen and contract killers and what have you, brought on by the creation of one of my original characters. I love everything about them, cliches included, because it just seems like a really weird and different way to live.
So when a game has Assassin's Creed in the title, I like it automatically. When I found out that it's pretty, I love it. When I find out that it is actually a good game I flip the fuck out.
So AC comes along and it's awesome whatever but then AC2's 5 minute demo rolls around at E3 and I am in buying-flowers-and-chocolate-and-introducing-you-to-my-parents-right-fucking-now love. Okay you have a really awesome flashy-looking main character + the renaissance + renaissance ITALY + LEONARDO DI VINCI'S FUCKING FLYING MACHINE ASKJDFLASKDFJ WHERE DO I SIGN UP.
of course at that point, i didn't have an xbox 360 or ps3. all i had was a wii and my PC, and this was one game i wanted to play with a controller in my hands. so i go after the xbox 360. get it for christmas. and then i realize that oh, yeah, it's an M rated game that has assassin in the title and mom will flip a shit if i ask for it/see me playing it.
so i sit by and wait for the game to come out and read things about ezio being a manwhore and want to shake and cry and go die somewhere. and the game comes out and i'm shaking and crying almost literally because i want to play this game so bad i can't stand it.
my friend dushyant gets it. and he talks about it and how beautiful and awesome it is and i just sadface all the freaking time because i can't play it. so then he offers to let me borrow it when he finishes it and moves on to mass effect 2.
so about a month later, he has it in his backpack and presents it to me and i'm all ;_; it's so pretty.
but then i get home and realize how hard it's going to be for me to actually play it. see, my xbox 360 is in our living room, center of the house. i can't play it in my room since i don't have my own TV and that's not a possibility anyway.
so it takes me about a month to wait and plan and scheme. finally, on valentine's day, mom is out of the house for such a long time i just said 'screw it' and got it out of it's hiding place and started to play it.
oh my god. oh my jesus christ. the first three hours of me playing AC2 was basically me running around florence in complete awe. i'm still in awe. like okay italy is my dream, right? i want to go to italy. i want to live in italy and retire in positano and get fat eating the best food on the face of the planet and be surrounded by beauty and history all the time. My heart aches every time I turn on my 360. It is that pretty.
anyway let's move on to ezio. i fucking love this dude. he's such a badass and manwhore and he knows it and is just so awesome and hilarious idek where to begin. candeefloss has come up with some of the best nicknames for him and i just can't unsee whenever i play so the whole experience is just made so much better. it's also really nice to see that he had more depth than altair did. at the same time, to borrow candeefloss's thought, i really hate how overall he was just a plot device. poor dude.
also aliens. just sayin'.
also leonardo needed more screen time. when i got to use the flying machine for the first time, that was the point where i paused the game, got off the sofa, and literally JUMPED AROUND MY LIVING ROOM SCREAMING FOR JOY. also press b for brograbs.
also venice? aaah omg. omg. i remember looking at the map for the first time and having to take a second because it is fucking HUGE. but i had to hurry up because Rosa was coming up and god damn it i love her. TAKE YOUR SORRY AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS. fff
which leads me to the following thought: wouldn't it be cool to have a female assassin? i mean there were two female statues in the sanctuary. i mean idk if they're related to desmond, or if he could even access their memories in the animus because of gender?? idk. i'm in this continuous search to find an assassin that's female and isn't a slut but still manages to be a badass. kind of like EVA but with less sneaking and more hidden blades haha
anyway.
my only real complaint with this game is i want more. like okay with twilight princess, i loved everything about it like i love AC2 right now, but the ending was good for me. it finished things off and i could put it away and put it in the ranks of my favorite games and be done with it. but with AC2, i just want to keep going beyond tying up all the feather/treasure collections and assassination contracts or whatever. there's going to be that multiplayer game but it's multiplayer and i'm skeptical of how much of an actual plot it's going to have. i want more of ezio being a manwhore and brograbs with leonardo and rosa being a really awesome HBIC. and everything else AC2 has. i really need xbox live so i can get the DLCs because omgomg
this game has made me such an addict. i make sure i get home early from school, and as i walk by the TV to let my dog out, i turn on my TV and 360 and grab my controller so i can play it through the window. I had my first fandom related dream about AC2. aksjdf;laskdjf THIS GAME.
also whoever would like to fund my soul silver/heart gold acquisition i'd appreciate it. :)
it's the college that gave me the most scholarship money; right now the tuition is down to ~$18,000 compared to the original ~$41,000. the cost of living in kansas city is also extremely low, which is a plus after freshmen year. i really hope that i end up going, and if i were in complete control of it, i would be. unfortunately we're poor so money matters. :/
i'm also going through some stuff with my dad lately. last time i went to stay with him, he brought me back and mom gave him some of my medical bills for my physical therapy and basically he flipped a shit. i kind of fled from the room because the conversation was getting pretty heated, and when i walk out dad was storming out of the house and slammed the door without saying goodbye to me.
he's a furniture representative for several different manufacturers, and it used to be a really good business until 9/11 rolled around and he hasn't really been getting the same amount of money he used to. however, he still earns a lot more than mom does; he has a really nice town house in downtown dallas, is able to travel frequently, and buy a lot more than we can. he mentioned to me on this same weekend that he was thinking about going to for a wide screen tv (and a few hours later he told mom he can't pay that much for my medical insurance; gee).
so i found out that he apparently has not been paying my mom his full amount of child support for a while now. he was supposed to sell his town house to make up for it, but he took it off the market last month.
right now i really feel like a huge financial burden. i feel like once i graduate from high school and he's no longer obligated to do anything else, i'll be out of the picture. if that's the case, then he won't be there to help my mom out with KCAI, because he's not legally responsible for my college education if it's out of state.
and i'm starting to feel it with my mom too; i mean, no matter which college i end up going to, i have to by a macbook pro. i added up the price of the macbook plus the software i'd need and the end result was her freaking out. it's at the point where she's the only one who can do the financial aid and i'm the only one who can do the scholarships and we both need support/help from someone, but can't get it from the other person. we're fighting a lot more than we have been, and it's starting to really upset me.
anyway yeah that's a disjointed what's-up-with-my-life right now moving on
Ever since 8th grade, I've had this fascination with assassins and hitmen and contract killers and what have you, brought on by the creation of one of my original characters. I love everything about them, cliches included, because it just seems like a really weird and different way to live.
So when a game has Assassin's Creed in the title, I like it automatically. When I found out that it's pretty, I love it. When I find out that it is actually a good game I flip the fuck out.
So AC comes along and it's awesome whatever but then AC2's 5 minute demo rolls around at E3 and I am in buying-flowers-and-chocolate-and-introducing-you-to-my-parents-right-fucking-now love. Okay you have a really awesome flashy-looking main character + the renaissance + renaissance ITALY + LEONARDO DI VINCI'S FUCKING FLYING MACHINE ASKJDFLASKDFJ WHERE DO I SIGN UP.
of course at that point, i didn't have an xbox 360 or ps3. all i had was a wii and my PC, and this was one game i wanted to play with a controller in my hands. so i go after the xbox 360. get it for christmas. and then i realize that oh, yeah, it's an M rated game that has assassin in the title and mom will flip a shit if i ask for it/see me playing it.
so i sit by and wait for the game to come out and read things about ezio being a manwhore and want to shake and cry and go die somewhere. and the game comes out and i'm shaking and crying almost literally because i want to play this game so bad i can't stand it.
my friend dushyant gets it. and he talks about it and how beautiful and awesome it is and i just sadface all the freaking time because i can't play it. so then he offers to let me borrow it when he finishes it and moves on to mass effect 2.
so about a month later, he has it in his backpack and presents it to me and i'm all ;_; it's so pretty.
but then i get home and realize how hard it's going to be for me to actually play it. see, my xbox 360 is in our living room, center of the house. i can't play it in my room since i don't have my own TV and that's not a possibility anyway.
so it takes me about a month to wait and plan and scheme. finally, on valentine's day, mom is out of the house for such a long time i just said 'screw it' and got it out of it's hiding place and started to play it.
oh my god. oh my jesus christ. the first three hours of me playing AC2 was basically me running around florence in complete awe. i'm still in awe. like okay italy is my dream, right? i want to go to italy. i want to live in italy and retire in positano and get fat eating the best food on the face of the planet and be surrounded by beauty and history all the time. My heart aches every time I turn on my 360. It is that pretty.
anyway let's move on to ezio. i fucking love this dude. he's such a badass and manwhore and he knows it and is just so awesome and hilarious idek where to begin. candeefloss has come up with some of the best nicknames for him and i just can't unsee whenever i play so the whole experience is just made so much better. it's also really nice to see that he had more depth than altair did. at the same time, to borrow candeefloss's thought, i really hate how overall he was just a plot device. poor dude.
also aliens. just sayin'.
also leonardo needed more screen time. when i got to use the flying machine for the first time, that was the point where i paused the game, got off the sofa, and literally JUMPED AROUND MY LIVING ROOM SCREAMING FOR JOY. also press b for brograbs.
also venice? aaah omg. omg. i remember looking at the map for the first time and having to take a second because it is fucking HUGE. but i had to hurry up because Rosa was coming up and god damn it i love her. TAKE YOUR SORRY AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS. fff
which leads me to the following thought: wouldn't it be cool to have a female assassin? i mean there were two female statues in the sanctuary. i mean idk if they're related to desmond, or if he could even access their memories in the animus because of gender?? idk. i'm in this continuous search to find an assassin that's female and isn't a slut but still manages to be a badass. kind of like EVA but with less sneaking and more hidden blades haha
anyway.
my only real complaint with this game is i want more. like okay with twilight princess, i loved everything about it like i love AC2 right now, but the ending was good for me. it finished things off and i could put it away and put it in the ranks of my favorite games and be done with it. but with AC2, i just want to keep going beyond tying up all the feather/treasure collections and assassination contracts or whatever. there's going to be that multiplayer game but it's multiplayer and i'm skeptical of how much of an actual plot it's going to have. i want more of ezio being a manwhore and brograbs with leonardo and rosa being a really awesome HBIC. and everything else AC2 has. i really need xbox live so i can get the DLCs because omgomg
this game has made me such an addict. i make sure i get home early from school, and as i walk by the TV to let my dog out, i turn on my TV and 360 and grab my controller so i can play it through the window. I had my first fandom related dream about AC2. aksjdf;laskdjf THIS GAME.
also whoever would like to fund my soul silver/heart gold acquisition i'd appreciate it. :)