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I needed a change. It's pretty bad when you want to write but you won't because you're worried about who is going to read it. well this is my escape from that. here i can write about anything and not have to worry about who is going to read it, because if you got told about this journal it means i care about you and about your opinions and what you think.
anyway, life has been sort of hectic of late. so much drama in so short a time that some of it I'm not going to even go into, but the major points are these: my girlfriend of the last 8 months and I are no longer together, and I'm living with my father on the cape. what those translate into are: I'm in the area and have lot of free time to fill. so if I know you from MA you should contact me. I'm always looking for something to do.
Have you ever had feelings for somebody that you just knew, deep down at the bottom of your heart, was probably bad for you? I can't help it. I like her. i know it's a bad idea that that I'm only going to end up disappointed, but it doesn't change the fact that when I'm around her I want to just grab her and kiss her. that, of course, is a feeling i have to fight. first of all, she's far away, and she's not the kind of girl who would attach herself to a long distance relationship. but also i feel like i wouldn't be able to keep her entertained. She's the kind of girl who's got boundless energy, and we can have conversations about almost anything, from big things like life and love to little things like a guy she saw on the street one time. but its that same boundless energy that makes me think that eventually she would lose interest in me eventually and I'd be left standing holding the bag. oh well. i guess we'll just have to wait and see won't we
anyway, life has been sort of hectic of late. so much drama in so short a time that some of it I'm not going to even go into, but the major points are these: my girlfriend of the last 8 months and I are no longer together, and I'm living with my father on the cape. what those translate into are: I'm in the area and have lot of free time to fill. so if I know you from MA you should contact me. I'm always looking for something to do.
Have you ever had feelings for somebody that you just knew, deep down at the bottom of your heart, was probably bad for you? I can't help it. I like her. i know it's a bad idea that that I'm only going to end up disappointed, but it doesn't change the fact that when I'm around her I want to just grab her and kiss her. that, of course, is a feeling i have to fight. first of all, she's far away, and she's not the kind of girl who would attach herself to a long distance relationship. but also i feel like i wouldn't be able to keep her entertained. She's the kind of girl who's got boundless energy, and we can have conversations about almost anything, from big things like life and love to little things like a guy she saw on the street one time. but its that same boundless energy that makes me think that eventually she would lose interest in me eventually and I'd be left standing holding the bag. oh well. i guess we'll just have to wait and see won't we