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I've been sick for what feels like a month, and I'm just now starting to feel better - and it's almost like I have boundless energy, though I think that's just a mental hooray/trick of the mind. I had walking pneumonia like a month ago and then got an upper respiratory infection. Ah, nothing like not getting enough sleep and always being stressed over work and school.
Fuck HGTV. It's about the only thing I watch on tv other than "A Haunting" or AOTS, and it's always OUTRAGEOUS BEACH HOMES, OUTRAGEOUS BOAT HOMES, HOTELS FOR THE RICH AND FAMOUS WHICH IS NOT YOU HAVE FUN WITH YOUR PIPE DREAM, etc. I think I've given up on world domination and instead seem to be settling for just getting an apartment and getting out of my parents house. Easier said than done. How do all these kids at school do it? And how the fuck do they keep up a social life on top of it?
I cut my work hours back so I would do more school work since I only have a year and a half left and I'm going in for the long haul. Yet somehow I don't have time for anything, and don't really make any money. I'm wondering if I alienated more people or if they alienated me and that's why I have no friends to hang out with. I have friends, we just never see or talk to each other.
What's up with that?
School and work also make me feel like a complete failure. Like I haven't accomplished anything and the more time I waste on them the more I'm missing my opportunity to shine. That, and technical know-how on everything requires money and experience that I'm not getting on campus. There are fifty-million things I want to excel at, but they all take focus.
About the only focus I have anymore is drooling over my netflix account or facebook waiting for something exciting to happen. I imagine Farmville isn't that intense despite what fb tells me. Money money money.
Fuck you, million-dollar go-getters in your twenties. I'm coming for you and I'll upstage you.
Fuck HGTV. It's about the only thing I watch on tv other than "A Haunting" or AOTS, and it's always OUTRAGEOUS BEACH HOMES, OUTRAGEOUS BOAT HOMES, HOTELS FOR THE RICH AND FAMOUS WHICH IS NOT YOU HAVE FUN WITH YOUR PIPE DREAM, etc. I think I've given up on world domination and instead seem to be settling for just getting an apartment and getting out of my parents house. Easier said than done. How do all these kids at school do it? And how the fuck do they keep up a social life on top of it?
I cut my work hours back so I would do more school work since I only have a year and a half left and I'm going in for the long haul. Yet somehow I don't have time for anything, and don't really make any money. I'm wondering if I alienated more people or if they alienated me and that's why I have no friends to hang out with. I have friends, we just never see or talk to each other.
What's up with that?
School and work also make me feel like a complete failure. Like I haven't accomplished anything and the more time I waste on them the more I'm missing my opportunity to shine. That, and technical know-how on everything requires money and experience that I'm not getting on campus. There are fifty-million things I want to excel at, but they all take focus.
About the only focus I have anymore is drooling over my netflix account or facebook waiting for something exciting to happen. I imagine Farmville isn't that intense despite what fb tells me. Money money money.
Fuck you, million-dollar go-getters in your twenties. I'm coming for you and I'll upstage you.