Damnit...(why?
I hate when I do this all over again. Why can't I just fucking forget about it ever turning out right?!?! It's just not worth it and yet, it is in sooo many ways. Why? Is it something I said? did? didn't do? Will something or someone just freaking tell me so I don't have to sit here banging my head on the wall. Ifreaking hate myself....I just have this sinking feeling. Fuck this...I'm just going to cry all night and freaking give up on everything. Jesus H Fucking Christ...why?