*sighs* its a waiting game now...
Well.. I guess life is crule... because I just had my conversation with my princess and *sighs* its killing me to think that I may lose her... I really love her... so very much... so very very much... because of the way she is... because of her smile... because of her laugh... everything about her makes me happy and smile... but tonight Im going from good to bad to worse...
Its like Im falling back to the depressed days so long abgo... where I wasnt happy with anything... and now it seems like Im messeing up another persons life... which is something I dont want to do...
I love you My Princess Becky... so very much... so much I want you to marry me... but I cant tell you that because your pissed at me so very much... I just want you to be happy... and if that means not being with me and not having to worry about trusting me then so be it... Ill take the hit and be depressed then... but I want you to be happy.
I love you... and always will...
Night...
PS theres no need to tell anyone theyd only hold us down, so by the mornings light... well be half way to anywhere... where love is more than just your name....
Its like Im falling back to the depressed days so long abgo... where I wasnt happy with anything... and now it seems like Im messeing up another persons life... which is something I dont want to do...
I love you My Princess Becky... so very much... so much I want you to marry me... but I cant tell you that because your pissed at me so very much... I just want you to be happy... and if that means not being with me and not having to worry about trusting me then so be it... Ill take the hit and be depressed then... but I want you to be happy.
I love you... and always will...
Night...
PS theres no need to tell anyone theyd only hold us down, so by the mornings light... well be half way to anywhere... where love is more than just your name....