Routines old and new
It's it crazy how some routines you cannot break at all-
and it is almost impossible to get yourself into a new routine.
You really have to drill it into your life.
Right now every time I come into my room I look at e-mail(s), facebook, myspace, im away messages and all that. And if i thought get rid of one of those things I feel like i would be totally lost. Just like i feel I would be lost without a cell phone.
As much as I try to get out of that habit of going straight to the laptop i can't seem to shake it.
Now a few times this year I was able to go to the gym in my building a couple times a week. Or even better- make it down to center city for a dance class. It has been a long while since a dance class in philly has happened. It's been at least a week since I hit my gym. For the last 3 years I have had the same goals to accomplish, the same songs to learn, the same book/plays to read, and the goal of adding a few new monologues to my rep.
But I Never have time for any of that- which i largely contribute to my number one time WASTER of the computer.
I use the computer for tons of productive things- but I know that the majority of my time on it is time that I don't need.
I try to do anything to get me off the computer too- from 11-12 every night i go into my living room to watch will and grace- while watching i can do other things; like clean my kitchen, fold my clothes, stretch. But if i am at the computer I am always distracted with one thing or another. You can easily see how messy my life is now because i have:
3 word documents open
6 Firefox browsers open... one with 16 tabs, one with 9 tabs, and one with 5 tabs
a power point
sheet music in a PDF format
AIM with 5 ims and an away message
Windows Media Player
and a folder of my voice lessons...
that's just my messy computer.
Now i'm in my living room writing this- disconnected from the internet because that would be way too distracting. I'm sipping on some tea and trying to relax physically and mentally. I need to have sometime to clear out my head and focus on what I am doing right now.
My goal list and my to do list keep getting larger and larger.
The Thing is the second you think you have yourself on a roll of thing you might have an idea of how to accomplish things there is an added variable... A Phone call, a part in a show, an extra project, out of town friends, friends dire emergency, an ankle injury.
My Planner right now is a mess. I am really excited for things in store in my future... but the fact that I am turning 20 in 2 weeks and am not too different from when i was 15 scares me.
It's amazing how age 0-5 is FOREVER- 5-10 is a lifetime... 10-15 is a world of change and fun... but 15-20... was the blink of an eye. I remember 15 so well and I wasn't too different then!
I needed to take the time to write this- being disconnected from the internet and visually seeing that I have a problem with this that i need to somehow fight and conquer if I want to succeed at what i love!
and it is almost impossible to get yourself into a new routine.
You really have to drill it into your life.
Right now every time I come into my room I look at e-mail(s), facebook, myspace, im away messages and all that. And if i thought get rid of one of those things I feel like i would be totally lost. Just like i feel I would be lost without a cell phone.
As much as I try to get out of that habit of going straight to the laptop i can't seem to shake it.
Now a few times this year I was able to go to the gym in my building a couple times a week. Or even better- make it down to center city for a dance class. It has been a long while since a dance class in philly has happened. It's been at least a week since I hit my gym. For the last 3 years I have had the same goals to accomplish, the same songs to learn, the same book/plays to read, and the goal of adding a few new monologues to my rep.
But I Never have time for any of that- which i largely contribute to my number one time WASTER of the computer.
I use the computer for tons of productive things- but I know that the majority of my time on it is time that I don't need.
I try to do anything to get me off the computer too- from 11-12 every night i go into my living room to watch will and grace- while watching i can do other things; like clean my kitchen, fold my clothes, stretch. But if i am at the computer I am always distracted with one thing or another. You can easily see how messy my life is now because i have:
3 word documents open
6 Firefox browsers open... one with 16 tabs, one with 9 tabs, and one with 5 tabs
a power point
sheet music in a PDF format
AIM with 5 ims and an away message
Windows Media Player
and a folder of my voice lessons...
that's just my messy computer.
Now i'm in my living room writing this- disconnected from the internet because that would be way too distracting. I'm sipping on some tea and trying to relax physically and mentally. I need to have sometime to clear out my head and focus on what I am doing right now.
My goal list and my to do list keep getting larger and larger.
The Thing is the second you think you have yourself on a roll of thing you might have an idea of how to accomplish things there is an added variable... A Phone call, a part in a show, an extra project, out of town friends, friends dire emergency, an ankle injury.
My Planner right now is a mess. I am really excited for things in store in my future... but the fact that I am turning 20 in 2 weeks and am not too different from when i was 15 scares me.
It's amazing how age 0-5 is FOREVER- 5-10 is a lifetime... 10-15 is a world of change and fun... but 15-20... was the blink of an eye. I remember 15 so well and I wasn't too different then!
I needed to take the time to write this- being disconnected from the internet and visually seeing that I have a problem with this that i need to somehow fight and conquer if I want to succeed at what i love!