you're just like a dream
i feel alone and i hate it. every damn thing about you makes me smile. it makes me so happy. but then i think, and i realize, everything about you sucks. everything about you and how you make me feel is one big contradiction. you make me feel alive and dead at the same time. you make me laugh and cry. you brighten my day and then you rain on it. and i love you and i hate you. i wish i could tell you how much you mean to me. i wish i knew if i even cared. i know my words cant change the way you feel, but im not ready to let you know. and i fear i never will be.
when you smile at me my heart sinks. i get butterflies in my stomach, i get nervous, i feel nauseous, i shake, my heart races, i smile like an idiot, i laugh nervously, i get clumsy, i feel dumb. you change my mood with one smile. one hello. i dont understand how such a little gesture could do this to me.
you're right there, but you're so distant, so unattainable.
i miss you.
when you smile at me my heart sinks. i get butterflies in my stomach, i get nervous, i feel nauseous, i shake, my heart races, i smile like an idiot, i laugh nervously, i get clumsy, i feel dumb. you change my mood with one smile. one hello. i dont understand how such a little gesture could do this to me.
you're right there, but you're so distant, so unattainable.
i miss you.