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A funny thing happens over a span of time...and no matter how long that span might be - it always happens...its the amazing fact that with time everything, or the things that used to be so important disappear. For example, if you stare at a cinderblock wall for more than a few seconds the blocks, the essential structure of that wall, disappears and all we can see is a blank white glare.
i guess the same can be said for human relationships...the differences are subtle but they're still there all the same...i notice the little erased things more so everyday...and i wonder if i should read more into them...or just pass them off under the "this too shall pass" catagory...?? as the little important things are slowly but surely, one by one, fading into the backs of our memories should i try to reach out and grasp what little we seem to have left?
in other news:
i may have jumped to conclusions and i may have made more of it in my head than it really was but i know that ill remember that moment for a very long time, if not forever...its not easy to just forget the first time the future is really, truly discussed.
but now...there is a disconnect again...i think thats really the only way to describe it...i owe so much and i feel like that growing debt is becoming a burden that i need to repay quickly...very, very, very quickly...
i love typing on this laptop...my fingers feel so delicate and nimble...
i had a wonderfully long conversation with kate today...its strange how the further i am from high school the more i think about it, miss it, hope that simplicity returns to my life soon...but i know it won't...
im sad that my friends don't really talk anymore...im sad that i dont make the effort to keep in touch...im sad that everything that was predicted came true...
but i love getting sentimental over pictures lately...i just look back on all those wonderful pics from holiday hill, graduation, bac mass, puerto rico...i remember the things i actually used to worry about then - ridiculous things like whether or not i was going to get a text message (on my HUGE old nokia btw)...its just funny how quickly time really does go by...way too quickly...
today was an overall good day...my classes went well, my quiz went well (hopefully)...mel and i went to cvs and had fun on our little Brookland adventures...and i got to spend time with her...which is always a wonderful treat...sam did well on comps and kristen and i had a wonderful chat about poop...it was good...i love those girls so much...
and now im at work til 2:30 am...its boring but its money and its easy...so its okay with me...thank God though that Sean lets me borrow his laptop....otherwise i might just go stir crazy...
i might just go crazy in general if i didn't have him...or just become more crazy than i already am...
A Whisper
I missed the good part then I realised
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for A Whisper
When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so.
A Whisper
You came back to haunt me and I realised
That you were an island and I passed you by
When you were an island to discover
Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for A Whisper
When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so
And I'm tired
I should not have let you go
So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms