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Yesterday was the first day I really felt numb, and more scared than anything. Scared that as each day that I wasnt in his life, the more he wouldnt want me back. I feel like I've cried almost all my tears, and all I can do now is just go on with my life and wait. I had a dream before that we were both at some concert, and I was supposed to meet him there. When it was over, I saw him and went to go to him through the crowd of people, and he had just left me there. When I woke up, I had almost forgot that I hadnt seen him in so long.
I hope he's happy, and that he's finding the answers he was looking for. I feel like I've realized so much in this past week, and all I want are to hear his words, his voice saying, "I realized that I need you in my life, and even though it may take a little bit more work to keep this going, I'm willing to give a little more if you still are."
I feel like as each day goes by, I'm losing a piece of him, and just so so so so scared he doesnt want to be found...
Tomorrow is back to reality. And my stupid photoblog isnt working anymore.
I hope he's happy, and that he's finding the answers he was looking for. I feel like I've realized so much in this past week, and all I want are to hear his words, his voice saying, "I realized that I need you in my life, and even though it may take a little bit more work to keep this going, I'm willing to give a little more if you still are."
I feel like as each day goes by, I'm losing a piece of him, and just so so so so scared he doesnt want to be found...
Tomorrow is back to reality. And my stupid photoblog isnt working anymore.