Heaven and The Distanced Lover
Heaven and The Distanced Lover
Under the bridge bottle in hand
I cry out songs of agony and joy
With my tears pattering poetry is written
Father will you Love me?
Will you Love me when I have lost my mind?
Will you Love me when I have turned my back on you for a moment?
In my weakness and my pain will you still see the child who needs you?
I have no one left in this world but you, my one and only Love.
No Lover can full fill me
No family can match the dedication
No friend can be so dedicated
There is no Love but that which falls from heaven
Hands raised to the bottom of your feet
Eyes raised to the base of your throne
"ADONAI!" I scream with a deep sense of need
But for the moment heaven is silent
My God! My GOD! Why have you forsaken me?
Why is your voice silent while I am here weeping?
Why is your comfort far from me?
Where is the voice of peace that has resonated in my soul?
I am a drunk. I am a fallen and utterly failed man.
I am no good father nor good husband nor great friend.
I am the wild and driven and crying mad man in the forest
For if there ever was a man hell bent on the night, it is this broken reed
Strike the bass, and let the winds sing of heavens mercies
All of the things I should be doing flow by the way
Every word spoken slips through my fingers
I am nothing, feel everything, and speak insanity
But you Lord are eternal. You are forever. You are my only refuge.
Turn not your Love from me
Forgive my humanity and utter lack of perfection
Accept me in your house and in your embrace let me find my solace
If ever there is a god in heaven that is not you
Let me stay myself forever in Hell
Like Lover who refuses to find comfort in another's arms
Let me never say there is Love in another's arms, forgiveness in another's words, or help in another's strength.
I may be a fool, but you are my God
I may be a failure, but you complete me
I may be incapable of Love, but you are that Love in me
And from the pits of Hell I will praise you with my last breath.
God forgive me for for the storms raging in my heart...
-JLivingston
Under the bridge bottle in hand
I cry out songs of agony and joy
With my tears pattering poetry is written
Father will you Love me?
Will you Love me when I have lost my mind?
Will you Love me when I have turned my back on you for a moment?
In my weakness and my pain will you still see the child who needs you?
I have no one left in this world but you, my one and only Love.
No Lover can full fill me
No family can match the dedication
No friend can be so dedicated
There is no Love but that which falls from heaven
Hands raised to the bottom of your feet
Eyes raised to the base of your throne
"ADONAI!" I scream with a deep sense of need
But for the moment heaven is silent
My God! My GOD! Why have you forsaken me?
Why is your voice silent while I am here weeping?
Why is your comfort far from me?
Where is the voice of peace that has resonated in my soul?
I am a drunk. I am a fallen and utterly failed man.
I am no good father nor good husband nor great friend.
I am the wild and driven and crying mad man in the forest
For if there ever was a man hell bent on the night, it is this broken reed
Strike the bass, and let the winds sing of heavens mercies
All of the things I should be doing flow by the way
Every word spoken slips through my fingers
I am nothing, feel everything, and speak insanity
But you Lord are eternal. You are forever. You are my only refuge.
Turn not your Love from me
Forgive my humanity and utter lack of perfection
Accept me in your house and in your embrace let me find my solace
If ever there is a god in heaven that is not you
Let me stay myself forever in Hell
Like Lover who refuses to find comfort in another's arms
Let me never say there is Love in another's arms, forgiveness in another's words, or help in another's strength.
I may be a fool, but you are my God
I may be a failure, but you complete me
I may be incapable of Love, but you are that Love in me
And from the pits of Hell I will praise you with my last breath.
God forgive me for for the storms raging in my heart...
-JLivingston