The habits that treason built...
Perhaps its just me, or the fact that i'm used to my own family's personal chaos... it's the classic what doesnt hurt anyone/what they dont know won't effect them.... yeeeeeeaaaah that may have a tried and true charm to it in the hands of most, but clearly not everyone is capable of basing any institution on these practices. It's all kind of comical in a seriously stressful and unnerving sort of way, like monkey in the middle. Thing is in this environment, i just don't get the damned rules, but instead i get to be the dusty waterlogged sponge that contains the emotions of these actions... confusion, paranoia, distress, betrayal, and just a general lack of honesty. Being folded into a situation in which everyone functions by walking on eggshells, hush-hush... sneaky shit... smh it isn't good for me....