NOTE TO SELF:
J9, the next time something or someone wonderful/appealing/attractive presents itself to you, or is presented to you, YOU TAKE IT! Don't think too much about the negative consequences anymore. It was presented to you for a reason. And you take it especially when it is served on a silver platter and when there are no strings attached. Seldom does it happen that there are no strings attached. You never know when opportunities like these will come again, if they do come again, and you're gonna be left wondering WHAT IF. And you know you hate that. Look at yourself now, you're regretting that you didn't grab that once in a lifetime opportunity. Crap