change means nothing, when nothing wants to change.
It feels like Christams. I was roaming around the house when I walked pass the tree and the glow from the lights refelected off the floor, and the fire place was warm with decorations all aound. And just the feeling it gave off... it does feel like Christmas again. I didn't think I would begin to feel it this year.
Speaking of Christmas... Angie and I bought Dad and xbox. How great are we?
I was going through some things tonight and found a very very old dance mix cd. haha Salt n' Pepa. ahhh ha ha. Some things in life are amusing.
Want to hear something sad? Angie's exhusband... He has a daughter my age, and this girl is really sweet. Angie and her Dad were divorced a few years ago. Well, Her Mother was a drunk and drug-addict who came out of a bar one night and was hit by a car because she didn't know what was going on. Her Father's never around, and now he decides to be because he starts dating HER FRIEND. Ok, rethink this one for me... She's my age... her friend. Her friend = 16. Does anyone see anything wrong with this picture? Her Father... a 35 year old divorced man, dating his daughter's 16 year old best friend. It obviously kills her, she's really disgusted by it. Everyone at school humiliates her and calls her friend her step mother. Oh jesus, only in Cherokee... ugh. Oh and get this, since her Dad's loaded... he lets this girl drive his new hummer around. How weird would it be going to school with someone your father's dating. I really hope noone reads this that knows who I'm talking about... yeah. It's sad. I feel horrible for her, I really do.
I thought I had it bad with my Father dating younger girls. ehww, atleast not that young.
Finals this week. I want to cry... I hate school. It stresses me out so much. Dad wants me to homeschool whenever Tim graduates. I really don't want to be homeschooled but Dad's always bitching about how public schools wont get me anywhere in life and I'll never leave Cherokee county if I graduate from around here. I really hope that's not true.
Oh and another thing... He wont let me go to Europe this summer. He decided. I'm so pissed off. I've never wanted something so much. He said he would think about it, and I had him so close to letting me, I wanted to so bad. I could taste it, smell it, see it. I dreamed I was there... it isn't fair. We have the money. He thought about it. He says I don't take anything in life serious, and that I'm too laid back about things, and it worries him about me being alone in a whole other country. He says I would end up raped and murdered. What the crap? I'm not stupid, but come on, I think I can take care of myself to a certain extent. know what I mean?
Kirk is trying to beat me at the "i love incubus more" game. fuck. little does he know I let him win. I did Brandon Boyd on my kitchen table.
I noticed something... this girl a friend of mine is dating... she's changing him. He wont even speak to me much anymore. And everyone claims she has a million different personalities. But when a good friend drops you over some chick... pshht. LAME ! Sorry, I just think that's kind of stupid.
I'm glad I have someone that's good to me. He makes life worth what it really is.
Speaking of Christmas... Angie and I bought Dad and xbox. How great are we?
I was going through some things tonight and found a very very old dance mix cd. haha Salt n' Pepa. ahhh ha ha. Some things in life are amusing.
Want to hear something sad? Angie's exhusband... He has a daughter my age, and this girl is really sweet. Angie and her Dad were divorced a few years ago. Well, Her Mother was a drunk and drug-addict who came out of a bar one night and was hit by a car because she didn't know what was going on. Her Father's never around, and now he decides to be because he starts dating HER FRIEND. Ok, rethink this one for me... She's my age... her friend. Her friend = 16. Does anyone see anything wrong with this picture? Her Father... a 35 year old divorced man, dating his daughter's 16 year old best friend. It obviously kills her, she's really disgusted by it. Everyone at school humiliates her and calls her friend her step mother. Oh jesus, only in Cherokee... ugh. Oh and get this, since her Dad's loaded... he lets this girl drive his new hummer around. How weird would it be going to school with someone your father's dating. I really hope noone reads this that knows who I'm talking about... yeah. It's sad. I feel horrible for her, I really do.
I thought I had it bad with my Father dating younger girls. ehww, atleast not that young.
Finals this week. I want to cry... I hate school. It stresses me out so much. Dad wants me to homeschool whenever Tim graduates. I really don't want to be homeschooled but Dad's always bitching about how public schools wont get me anywhere in life and I'll never leave Cherokee county if I graduate from around here. I really hope that's not true.
Oh and another thing... He wont let me go to Europe this summer. He decided. I'm so pissed off. I've never wanted something so much. He said he would think about it, and I had him so close to letting me, I wanted to so bad. I could taste it, smell it, see it. I dreamed I was there... it isn't fair. We have the money. He thought about it. He says I don't take anything in life serious, and that I'm too laid back about things, and it worries him about me being alone in a whole other country. He says I would end up raped and murdered. What the crap? I'm not stupid, but come on, I think I can take care of myself to a certain extent. know what I mean?
Kirk is trying to beat me at the "i love incubus more" game. fuck. little does he know I let him win. I did Brandon Boyd on my kitchen table.
I noticed something... this girl a friend of mine is dating... she's changing him. He wont even speak to me much anymore. And everyone claims she has a million different personalities. But when a good friend drops you over some chick... pshht. LAME ! Sorry, I just think that's kind of stupid.
I'm glad I have someone that's good to me. He makes life worth what it really is.