Meteor Garden
It's so pathetic that it takes a chinese drama to make me feel better about life. I spent the day finishing Meteor Garden with the famous F4 band from Taiwain (who i absolutely adore now) and was bawling my eyes out as I reached the last couple of episodes. I put too much emphasis on these dramas. I have no self control whatsover when it comes to watching these things, and I become so absorbed that I get so vulnerable emotionally that I don't even realize how sucked in I am until it's too late. Lol. This drama gives me what little hope I have left in humanity and somewhat persuaded me that perhaps there is love out there. Stupid right..... I feel stupid as I'm typing this out. A drama.. something that isn't real is making me believe that love exists. They're acting was horrific though.. but I liked the storyline and whatnot
I really admired the main character in the show. Strong, moral, and kind. The complete opposite of who I am.
I'm going to be 18 soon. It seems like I'll be heading to Philly. I'm so freaking confident that I can overcome anything once I move there.. and I have no idea why when I'm having so much trouble picking myself up over here. I feel like I'm setting myself up for a disappointment. I shouldn't be so pessimistic. I make my life seem so much more horrible than it really is, and it's stupid because it's not. I make myself miserable. That's my problem. I need to figure out a way to stamp out this bad habit of mine.
Nothing have made me sunk to this level except myself. Linda. Take responsibility. Slap yourself. Get a grip. You're strong and smarter than this. Aja. Aja. Aja!! I will push myself. I will. Instead of this talk, I will make my dad happy. I will make myself happy. I will make my life happy. Enough bullshit. Time to show it. xO Aja!!!
Prom is in a couple of weeks. I have to get another job..becuz yea.. I need to get money for it. -_-' This totally goes against all I believe in.. but I got a pink prom dress. *sighs* lol.
I really admired the main character in the show. Strong, moral, and kind. The complete opposite of who I am.
I'm going to be 18 soon. It seems like I'll be heading to Philly. I'm so freaking confident that I can overcome anything once I move there.. and I have no idea why when I'm having so much trouble picking myself up over here. I feel like I'm setting myself up for a disappointment. I shouldn't be so pessimistic. I make my life seem so much more horrible than it really is, and it's stupid because it's not. I make myself miserable. That's my problem. I need to figure out a way to stamp out this bad habit of mine.
Nothing have made me sunk to this level except myself. Linda. Take responsibility. Slap yourself. Get a grip. You're strong and smarter than this. Aja. Aja. Aja!! I will push myself. I will. Instead of this talk, I will make my dad happy. I will make myself happy. I will make my life happy. Enough bullshit. Time to show it. xO Aja!!!
Prom is in a couple of weeks. I have to get another job..becuz yea.. I need to get money for it. -_-' This totally goes against all I believe in.. but I got a pink prom dress. *sighs* lol.