Anziety? Soap Operas Help!
I seem to never learn from my mistakes. I have to stop caring so much. It's because I care so much that I get hurt time and time again.
I have been extremely bitchy lately, refusing to hear the other side of the story because you know what, I'm tired of reasoning, I'm tired of having to say well.. because of that, I suppose it's ok. But it's not ok. At least not in this particular case. It will never be ok to me. You do it once to me, and I will never trust you. Because to be frank, no way in hell will I allow myself to get hurt when I know what the other's priorities truly are. You can say you changed, but I just won't take that chance. No one ever forces you to do anything, what you do is what you choose. If I see the choices you make, that can potentially hurt me, then I'm backing out. So honestly, now you have no one to blame but yourself if you end up alone. I won't pity you, because why should I? You made the choice.
I've noticed a trend. When I get stressed or anxious, I focus everything on my korean soap operas. I just completely indulge myself in the drama and if its funny, I laugh my ass off. If it's sad I cry my ass off. If it sucks, I still indulge myself in it. As long as it helps me to get away from thinking about my stress.. my anxiety. If I let my guard down, I'm afriad of what might happen. My recent indulgence have been: All About Eve. It's not the best drama, but it's decent. Not one I would recommend though.
It seems that lately, human morale has been so low. It's already bad enough that the entertainment industry believes that sex sells, but now that we're actually promoting it, saying that it's ok, that it's no longer a surprise when people divorce, when people have affairs. I mean what's wrong with the world now? What happened to good ol' chivalry? I'm a bit disgusted. I'm starting to think I'm more republican than I am democratic.. I think that's my worst fear. REPUBLICAN. Holy crap. lol.
Weird out of nowhere comments of almost anything.
My attempts of a "vague" entry is so horrible. It's pathetic really haha.
**and I'm aware that anxiety is spelled wrong**