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[mzz_white_witch]

 Wow, crying again.

What happened to me? I cant fall into this stupid state again.. I just cant not now not ever.

Why doesnt anyone really get it? Thats great you have your "opinions" but what about how i feel? I dont want to quit my job, i dont want to stop skating, I dont want to go to the doctor every second day. I DONT WANT IT.

I dont need much to

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[lil_bunni_fuufu]

so instead of talking about things you go hide in your live journal.

what happened to the jolene i met back in grade 8?

i'm trying to tell you that this is life, you have to take it in a way that is meaningful and worthwhile for yourself.

you will have to go to the doctors every couple of days. you said you want to feel better but you need to put in that effort to do so. don't tell me that you want to be healthy again when you're too scared to go to them.

i didn't tell you to stop skating, nor tell you to quit today. i told you do what you want to do before you can't. let's say you do get better. how long would it take? will you be able to get all that time back? will you have as much time as you do now? by that time, who knows what will happen.

hell, people are dying in russia, jolene. what if there's another war? how long will it take? what if our freedom gets taken away? what will we do then? i'm telling you to take life positively and it could be worse. what's wrong with that? it's time to grow up.

think about how many of your friends has a job. think about how many people have school to attend, and tests to take. how many of your friends have their own path they want to walk on, something they want to try out?

EVERYONE.

i dislike how you assume that there will be two people out of your many friends that will visit you. i truly dislike this comment. this is why people choose not to do things with you. what do you want? do you want us to cry a river for you because you're not feeling well? spoon feed you sugar-coated words that don't mean anything? maybe if you didn't judge us like that, we'll have more respect for you. if you really want that to happen then i'll make sure it does.

i don't appreciate how you instant messaged me with: HATER.
that just gives me more of a reason to dislike you at this moment. i haven't messaged you and you haven't messaged me in a month. i don't see you that much but i won't tell you that you're a fucking bitch for no reason.

i know that you are upset about danny and i. but like i told you, be happy for yourself. i am happy the way i am and i will not listen to things that will drag me down. you can tell others how much he's changed me. but guess what? i think it's for the better! who else is going to change just for me, treat me like gold and mold me into a woman?

do you even know what the golden rule is?

"Treat others the way you want to be treated."

have you done that? i've listened to you talk about ehsan, i was there for those doctor trips. i tried my best to fit you in. i even traveled from downtown on that saturday to your work to spend 10 minutes with you. who do you think is being taken for granted?

we've all tried. we all told you. we tried to help you out. but you're just scared to make your own steps. i already know you're not the strong one. a strong one would take life by the reins instead of letting it over take them. so please, open your eyes. there is much more you can do than cry.

your goal to be healthy won't happen if you don't do anything for yourself. i, for one won't drag you to the doctor's cause you're not even willing to do it.

THIS IS ALL FOR YOU AND YOUR OWN GOOD.

not me, i don't benefit from this, it's YOU. it's YOU, jolene, we were always thinking about YOU. don't tell us that we don't do anything for you.

my offer still stands. i'm here with open arms. but i'm not an idiot. i won't be taken for granted. you can always talk to me. i'm trying to help you see that the grass is greener on the other side.

don't tell me i'm trying to change you. in the end, it's for your own good.