It was an old school 'friend's' house party (not even really sure why I was invited, we were like best friends in year 9 and fairly close to year 11, but since...), but she has loads of other friends (who I know of, but not friends with) who were also there, so really I was there for her and I hardly knew anyone else. All I got from her was a wave from across the room and I was basically just stood on my own, not knowing or talking to anyone for the best part of three hours. It doesn't matter how good a mood you're in, after that long it wears you down. The only person I spoke to was a guy who I think was one of her cousins and he was nice, but we didn't have anything in common so that couldn't last long. I was happiest when I did get to see a bit of MotD on their TV, but then I thought maybe it was my fault nobody was talking to me if I was doing other things, so I went back in the kitchen and got ignored some more before I had to give up or the only attention I would get is pity/comtempt because I couldn't help crying. I hate social situations like that, but I keep putting myself through them... Virtual hugs are very nice, thanks.
I've had the same thing happen to me, twice. Last time it happened, I just got out my mobile and got hold of someone I knew and made them come haha.
Omg you're so like me, I'd have been watching MotD, then telling myself off for it, then working myself up about people, then worrying about the party, then going home and getting upset... More virtual hugs? *hug*
It always annoys me, because the other people there should be talking to guests who are on their own, including you and making you feel comfortable. And so should the girl who's party it was too. *hug*
Yeah, I made sure I was trying, but she was always with at least two other people, so I'd try standing relatively nearby, but my shyness is crippling when the thought of butting into somebody else's conversation comes to mind. And there were no gaps for entry! >_< I think I'm going to stay up a while gorging myself on chocolate and funny videos... V_V *hug* Thanks for listening
I know, I used to get told off for butting in all the time, so I just sort of smiled innocently until I got attention...doesn't really work. :)
Ooh, I had some Galaxy chocolate earlier, works a treat. :) (the boyfriend's away, so I needed chocolate). I've had enough of funnys, my brother's watching Viva la Bam and it's a bit tooo funny for me. But Disney comedy? Always. :D
Hope you're alright, still here with the virtual hugs if you want. *hug*
I think now I'm gone from the sadness and self-hatred to the outward hatred: how dare they not register how awesome I am?! Lol, maybe not quite, but things don't seem to change much from secondary school. I tend to be okay so long as I have something else to do, but I've lost my phone and didn't take my iPod or anything (that whole anti-social guilt trip again) so that wasn't much of an option.
Ah man, Galaxy would be great, but I had a triple-chocolate chip cookie earlier so I probably shouldn't have any more really...
Added thought: I think part of what really bugs me is that I think I should have grown out of this - I thought I left it behind when I left secondary school, but no, put me in a slightly unsteady social situation and I crumble almost as easily as I used to... *sigh*
Funnily enough, it's better Psychologically to be outward hating than inward. [/stops being a shrink]
If I was a sim, I'd totally have that rubix thingy the science sims have and get that out at parties. It'd preoccupy me, and not be as obvious as me listening to the mp3 player (ish)! :)
I was meant to share my Galazy with my family, but then they didn't want any so...it was really nice. :) Cookies are yum, especially double chocolate ones...blimey, you'd never know I weigh 7 stone the way I talk about food, would you?
*reply to added thought* Same. I thought uni would be more accepting and I'd come into my own sort of thing. But in the end the *tries to underline and fails* ONLY person I met at uni was my boyfriend. Yes, I was lucky to meet him, but I thought there would at least be a few kindred spirits on my course. :(
Wow - you must be skinny! O_O Sorry, stops focusing on that now.
Yeah, I can believe what you say about outward hating - I spent several years inward hating in secondary school and that did me NO good.
I suck at Rubix Cubes, I'd probably wind up throwing it at somebody or something, lol.
I've met some nice people at uni, I think they are more open in first year, but it's when peoples' social groups settle down and they kind of close off from everyone else... Not looking forward to that again >_<
If all else fails I will adopt children and love them and then they will love me! *giggles maniacally* ...Lol.
Heh, I'm just generally tiny, 5'1'' tall as well. Only my face tells my age haha.
The rubix cube could be a talking point if you threw it at someone and went 'oi, solve that!' :) but then, I'd probably throw it and then spend the rest of the night going 'sorry, sorry, sorry...'
I found second year better at uni because they put us in presentation groups and I met loads more people. It's just lectures, I tended to take notes, and other people socialised. :)
Ha, I'd agree about the adopting children thing, but if my boyfriend ever gets LJ he would be a little concerned to read it, haha. :D
Ah, I made it to about 5'3 1/2" before my growth gave out. And if anything my face probably makes me look younger... *Has a chubby face*
The rubix cube thing might work, in the same way the pirate eye patch might have done - it might give people a reason to talk to you, but if people still ignored me (in exactly the same way), I probably would have blamed the eye patch for making people think I'm weird when it didn't change anything.
*Hmm* I'm not sure if the presentation group thing would work for me - I'm not very good at group work myself (and the one time we had to do it last year, neither was anybody else).
That's something to think about to cheer me up - baaaabies! I'm going to a relative get-together on Wednesday and there'll be a little boy of about 3 months there... :)
*Savours hugs where she can get them and not risk giving people eye infections* :P
The only person I spoke to was a guy who I think was one of her cousins and he was nice, but we didn't have anything in common so that couldn't last long. I was happiest when I did get to see a bit of MotD on their TV, but then I thought maybe it was my fault nobody was talking to me if I was doing other things, so I went back in the kitchen and got ignored some more before I had to give up or the only attention I would get is pity/comtempt because I couldn't help crying. I hate social situations like that, but I keep putting myself through them...
Virtual hugs are very nice, thanks.
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Omg you're so like me, I'd have been watching MotD, then telling myself off for it, then working myself up about people, then worrying about the party, then going home and getting upset... More virtual hugs? *hug*
It always annoys me, because the other people there should be talking to guests who are on their own, including you and making you feel comfortable. And so should the girl who's party it was too. *hug*
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I think I'm going to stay up a while gorging myself on chocolate and funny videos... V_V
*hug* Thanks for listening
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Ooh, I had some Galaxy chocolate earlier, works a treat. :) (the boyfriend's away, so I needed chocolate). I've had enough of funnys, my brother's watching Viva la Bam and it's a bit tooo funny for me. But Disney comedy? Always. :D
Hope you're alright, still here with the virtual hugs if you want. *hug*
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I tend to be okay so long as I have something else to do, but I've lost my phone and didn't take my iPod or anything (that whole anti-social guilt trip again) so that wasn't much of an option.
Ah man, Galaxy would be great, but I had a triple-chocolate chip cookie earlier so I probably shouldn't have any more really...
I greatly appreciate the virtual hugs *hug*
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If I was a sim, I'd totally have that rubix thingy the science sims have and get that out at parties. It'd preoccupy me, and not be as obvious as me listening to the mp3 player (ish)! :)
I was meant to share my Galazy with my family, but then they didn't want any so...it was really nice. :) Cookies are yum, especially double chocolate ones...blimey, you'd never know I weigh 7 stone the way I talk about food, would you?
Another hug? :) *hug*
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Yeah, I can believe what you say about outward hating - I spent several years inward hating in secondary school and that did me NO good.
I suck at Rubix Cubes, I'd probably wind up throwing it at somebody or something, lol.
I've met some nice people at uni, I think they are more open in first year, but it's when peoples' social groups settle down and they kind of close off from everyone else... Not looking forward to that again >_<
If all else fails I will adopt children and love them and then they will love me! *giggles maniacally* ...Lol.
*Hugs!*
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The rubix cube could be a talking point if you threw it at someone and went 'oi, solve that!' :) but then, I'd probably throw it and then spend the rest of the night going 'sorry, sorry, sorry...'
I found second year better at uni because they put us in presentation groups and I met loads more people. It's just lectures, I tended to take notes, and other people socialised. :)
Ha, I'd agree about the adopting children thing, but if my boyfriend ever gets LJ he would be a little concerned to read it, haha. :D
*morehugs*
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The rubix cube thing might work, in the same way the pirate eye patch might have done - it might give people a reason to talk to you, but if people still ignored me (in exactly the same way), I probably would have blamed the eye patch for making people think I'm weird when it didn't change anything.
*Hmm* I'm not sure if the presentation group thing would work for me - I'm not very good at group work myself (and the one time we had to do it last year, neither was anybody else).
That's something to think about to cheer me up - baaaabies! I'm going to a relative get-together on Wednesday and there'll be a little boy of about 3 months there... :)
*Savours hugs where she can get them and not risk giving people eye infections* :P
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