whoa, i'm not hip!
i haven't updated this thing in a while
k, i'm still in new york...2 more weeks in new york....word.
and then spring break!? NEW YORK!!! lol.....can't get enough of the stuff i suppose...spring break will be a different type of NY for me though, imma be with my homies :-) in manhattan all week long....a lot of fun stuff in store :-)
i'm fucking tired and for those who know core issues in my life....there's been progress, but the progress is fucking SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW very very slow....and i don't know what to do to move it along
i'm very anxious....and i'm trying really hard to stay reserved, calm...at peace with myself...but i swear, if this entire time spent does NOT work out for the better good...i'm going to lash out and fucking break something other than a board. maybe break a board on somebody...maybe break a board on myself...who knows.
prayer would be good right about now....suprisingly so, i haven't lost faith...but as tom said once, i haven't invested faith in the process...or trust to leave it in the hands of those who are meant to do what they do...because i can only do so much. and if i've done all i can do...it's pointless to worry! it is stupid of me to worry...
seriously, if you've done all you can and you're in a situation where you have to just wait!??!?! then fucking wait, for God's sakes!! don't fucking ponder and worry worry and cry a river about it (i'm slapping myself on the head)....and if only i could tell my mom and my friends this........everyone who fucking whines and worries about anything and everything...we need to just fucking stop!!!
everything is in God's hands....we just have to play our cards right and everything will be better in the end...because we've tried our best.......and if we haven't tried our best and we know it....thennnnn we go to hell and deserve it.
the end.
PS
burnt food really smells bad and lingers...BLECH
k, i'm still in new york...2 more weeks in new york....word.
and then spring break!? NEW YORK!!! lol.....can't get enough of the stuff i suppose...spring break will be a different type of NY for me though, imma be with my homies :-) in manhattan all week long....a lot of fun stuff in store :-)
i'm fucking tired and for those who know core issues in my life....there's been progress, but the progress is fucking SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW very very slow....and i don't know what to do to move it along
i'm very anxious....and i'm trying really hard to stay reserved, calm...at peace with myself...but i swear, if this entire time spent does NOT work out for the better good...i'm going to lash out and fucking break something other than a board. maybe break a board on somebody...maybe break a board on myself...who knows.
prayer would be good right about now....suprisingly so, i haven't lost faith...but as tom said once, i haven't invested faith in the process...or trust to leave it in the hands of those who are meant to do what they do...because i can only do so much. and if i've done all i can do...it's pointless to worry! it is stupid of me to worry...
seriously, if you've done all you can and you're in a situation where you have to just wait!??!?! then fucking wait, for God's sakes!! don't fucking ponder and worry worry and cry a river about it (i'm slapping myself on the head)....and if only i could tell my mom and my friends this........everyone who fucking whines and worries about anything and everything...we need to just fucking stop!!!
everything is in God's hands....we just have to play our cards right and everything will be better in the end...because we've tried our best.......and if we haven't tried our best and we know it....thennnnn we go to hell and deserve it.
the end.
PS
burnt food really smells bad and lingers...BLECH