dont change
PISSED!
omg.
okay.
so once again A BITCH is rearing her ugly ass head.
this time, its in the form of an auntie.
'get off tha phone!'
it rang.
and of course, it was for me.
dont nobdoi call for neither one of dem.
i dont have a cell phone.
so the house might as well be poppin right?
then...ON TOP of that.
straight up, FLAT OUT...ONE WAY!!!!
so she be on that bullshit about me being on the computer.
'you not supposed to be on the computer or the phone'
WHOA>black woman.
whoo died and made you my mama.
'you supposed to be sick'
so the fuck wat?
im still 17.
not 28 like you.
just because YOU get NOCTURNAL when you get a 'SHIVER'
doesnt mean ima be in hibernation.
ooooh no.
oh.
also i have decided ima back off emotionally on eric.
cuz shit. even i think its too much.
but right now im really feeling silly.
cuz when dudes ask me do i have b/f i be like naw...but im talkin to somebody.
BUT.....when the fuck is all this damn talking gon turn into someethin???
AND I HAVE THE ANSWER!!!!!
after we hang out SOMEMORE!....
i gotta recognize and LOVE that fact.
so.....ima have to chill out on that one.
i wish he would just be like...'hey chill out!'
but he wont. psh.....
i asked him why did he like me.
cuz we're, well I decided we should do the 're-get to know' each other thing.
and he started naming stuff.
thats random cuz i cant really remember everything.
umm...i do feel bad for him tho.
cuz he has to take dana to prom and he doesnt 'want' to.
but i mean...he is going to have fun.
'06 is hilarious at iwa.
he'll have a good time.
ahh it was hilarious.
i kno nothing betta happen at that prom tho.
real talk.
lol.
cornelle, his younger cousin, was like eric....wat you gon be doing at prom???
who you goiing wit?
you think you gon....????
oh more random stuff....
it was hilarious.
i love cornelle.
he don got a lil older....
way taller! lol.
still a lil knuckle head tho.
okay this is wat holds me up.
its not a set back.
but its definetly not helpin with the movement as i see it.
when he says stuff like this...
eric: u like me alot dont u
netta: huh?
eric: i was just asking
eric: neva mind
netta: well since we like to be honest
netta: im going to say that yes i do like you alot eric palmer
eric: wow thanx
eric: bye
netta: waaaaaaaat
netta: you cant ask a question like that and then leave
eric: no
eric: i just wanna say that i like u alot too
okay.
so that there is like....improvement.
i just HATE being the only one voicing. ON my OWN! how much i like him.
so i have stopped that.
so it wont be so weird.
im SO the girl. haha.
cornelle asked.
you and him together?
no. NOT just cornelle.
EVERYBODY.
im bout to be just like...NO dammit.
gosh.
then it was hilarious.
this lil bum was doing this on purpose.
he asked who i was.
i was like.....UMM>>>>how many girls yo cousin talk to?<<<<
him being so smoooth.
just you Netta.
i was like...uh huh. lol.
that lil boy is too much for me.
and so is the big peanut head one too!!!
but what does happen if we like....eaaaase on into a relationship?
i guess he gets re-nroduced to my mama and family.
my mom called him to skinny.
i thought that was hilarious.
i was like...ladii if you ONLY knew.
psht...all the food goes to ONE place.
okay, ima stop.
but how cute would it be?
dinner and movie?
walks through parks...like i like it!
trips to musuems....
lil coffee shops.
omg....this poetry spot called ???? crap. gotta ask Bryan W.
he knows...
we could calbo on shopping since we both like to do it all the time.
bowling. even tho i suck at it.
chill wit family, of either side.
i guess id have to meet his mom.
im kinda frightened by that one.
cuz kevin said she doesnt play about her baby.
and peanut head is indeed her baby.
lol.
but peanut head baby is a freak!
swear.
when kevin yelled at me for 'talking about other guys to eric when we're on the phone together'
i was SUPER thrown off.
cuz i just told eric about what happened wit me and stephen.
and thats it.
FLAT OUT, stephen is like 'talkin' to brittany from crcp.....so im all for that!
now...if i could just get him to leave me alone, id be fine.
anywho.
i was tellin eric about that, not b/c i felt guilty but because i felt he deserved to know.
but again.
its like.
im single. but i think b4 my actions like that of a person who is in a "together-ness"
i dont even wanna call it a relationship.
im not even gon take it far and say i dont want anybody else.
but NOBODY knows me, confuses me, or complicates me more than this person.
he should be stopped!
okay. im done talkin bout him.
OMG.
okay. so something i realized.
justin has a younger cousin. just like eric.
me and eric broke up, younger cousin has no hard feelings.
i break up with justin, younger cousin thinks i like stabbed justin the front, back and SIDE TO SIDE!!!(shout out to UGK!!) lol.
i asked him todai. i was like wat the fuck is wrong wit that nigga?
he was like ...OH HE HATES YOU.
i was like well damnn.
i guess HE TOO must receive the almighty flamming.
like really, who the hell do these big st.peters/ O'fallon livin niggas think they are??
im totally confused.
and im ToOOOO mad he asked me to prom.
wtf?
today is the 25th.
prom is may 6th.
1. i don thave money for that.
2. i have money that was evenly distrubuted amongst other foundations of need when we broke up.
3. i dont wanna be NOWHERE with all the fake people, and their fake feelings towards me.
i have NEVER seen nothing like this in my entire life.
flat out. just OUTRIGHT hating.
like they dont even try to hide it.
its just like being in an african jungle.
you liable to catch something.
i hate school.
i just hate livin out here.
when im sooooo close to being out.
i want to be in the city!
i could do watever.
omg..have SEx with the guy i want too allllll the time.
it would be great.
STILL a virgin.
thanks to eric! lol.hahahhaa....omg. dont kill me for that.
omg.
okay.
so once again A BITCH is rearing her ugly ass head.
this time, its in the form of an auntie.
'get off tha phone!'
it rang.
and of course, it was for me.
dont nobdoi call for neither one of dem.
i dont have a cell phone.
so the house might as well be poppin right?
then...ON TOP of that.
straight up, FLAT OUT...ONE WAY!!!!
so she be on that bullshit about me being on the computer.
'you not supposed to be on the computer or the phone'
WHOA>black woman.
whoo died and made you my mama.
'you supposed to be sick'
so the fuck wat?
im still 17.
not 28 like you.
just because YOU get NOCTURNAL when you get a 'SHIVER'
doesnt mean ima be in hibernation.
ooooh no.
oh.
also i have decided ima back off emotionally on eric.
cuz shit. even i think its too much.
but right now im really feeling silly.
cuz when dudes ask me do i have b/f i be like naw...but im talkin to somebody.
BUT.....when the fuck is all this damn talking gon turn into someethin???
AND I HAVE THE ANSWER!!!!!
after we hang out SOMEMORE!....
i gotta recognize and LOVE that fact.
so.....ima have to chill out on that one.
i wish he would just be like...'hey chill out!'
but he wont. psh.....
i asked him why did he like me.
cuz we're, well I decided we should do the 're-get to know' each other thing.
and he started naming stuff.
thats random cuz i cant really remember everything.
umm...i do feel bad for him tho.
cuz he has to take dana to prom and he doesnt 'want' to.
but i mean...he is going to have fun.
'06 is hilarious at iwa.
he'll have a good time.
ahh it was hilarious.
i kno nothing betta happen at that prom tho.
real talk.
lol.
cornelle, his younger cousin, was like eric....wat you gon be doing at prom???
who you goiing wit?
you think you gon....????
oh more random stuff....
it was hilarious.
i love cornelle.
he don got a lil older....
way taller! lol.
still a lil knuckle head tho.
okay this is wat holds me up.
its not a set back.
but its definetly not helpin with the movement as i see it.
when he says stuff like this...
eric: u like me alot dont u
netta: huh?
eric: i was just asking
eric: neva mind
netta: well since we like to be honest
netta: im going to say that yes i do like you alot eric palmer
eric: wow thanx
eric: bye
netta: waaaaaaaat
netta: you cant ask a question like that and then leave
eric: no
eric: i just wanna say that i like u alot too
okay.
so that there is like....improvement.
i just HATE being the only one voicing. ON my OWN! how much i like him.
so i have stopped that.
so it wont be so weird.
im SO the girl. haha.
cornelle asked.
you and him together?
no. NOT just cornelle.
EVERYBODY.
im bout to be just like...NO dammit.
gosh.
then it was hilarious.
this lil bum was doing this on purpose.
he asked who i was.
i was like.....UMM>>>>how many girls yo cousin talk to?<<<<
him being so smoooth.
just you Netta.
i was like...uh huh. lol.
that lil boy is too much for me.
and so is the big peanut head one too!!!
but what does happen if we like....eaaaase on into a relationship?
i guess he gets re-nroduced to my mama and family.
my mom called him to skinny.
i thought that was hilarious.
i was like...ladii if you ONLY knew.
psht...all the food goes to ONE place.
okay, ima stop.
but how cute would it be?
dinner and movie?
walks through parks...like i like it!
trips to musuems....
lil coffee shops.
omg....this poetry spot called ???? crap. gotta ask Bryan W.
he knows...
we could calbo on shopping since we both like to do it all the time.
bowling. even tho i suck at it.
chill wit family, of either side.
i guess id have to meet his mom.
im kinda frightened by that one.
cuz kevin said she doesnt play about her baby.
and peanut head is indeed her baby.
lol.
but peanut head baby is a freak!
swear.
when kevin yelled at me for 'talking about other guys to eric when we're on the phone together'
i was SUPER thrown off.
cuz i just told eric about what happened wit me and stephen.
and thats it.
FLAT OUT, stephen is like 'talkin' to brittany from crcp.....so im all for that!
now...if i could just get him to leave me alone, id be fine.
anywho.
i was tellin eric about that, not b/c i felt guilty but because i felt he deserved to know.
but again.
its like.
im single. but i think b4 my actions like that of a person who is in a "together-ness"
i dont even wanna call it a relationship.
im not even gon take it far and say i dont want anybody else.
but NOBODY knows me, confuses me, or complicates me more than this person.
he should be stopped!
okay. im done talkin bout him.
OMG.
okay. so something i realized.
justin has a younger cousin. just like eric.
me and eric broke up, younger cousin has no hard feelings.
i break up with justin, younger cousin thinks i like stabbed justin the front, back and SIDE TO SIDE!!!(shout out to UGK!!) lol.
i asked him todai. i was like wat the fuck is wrong wit that nigga?
he was like ...OH HE HATES YOU.
i was like well damnn.
i guess HE TOO must receive the almighty flamming.
like really, who the hell do these big st.peters/ O'fallon livin niggas think they are??
im totally confused.
and im ToOOOO mad he asked me to prom.
wtf?
today is the 25th.
prom is may 6th.
1. i don thave money for that.
2. i have money that was evenly distrubuted amongst other foundations of need when we broke up.
3. i dont wanna be NOWHERE with all the fake people, and their fake feelings towards me.
i have NEVER seen nothing like this in my entire life.
flat out. just OUTRIGHT hating.
like they dont even try to hide it.
its just like being in an african jungle.
you liable to catch something.
i hate school.
i just hate livin out here.
when im sooooo close to being out.
i want to be in the city!
i could do watever.
omg..have SEx with the guy i want too allllll the time.
it would be great.
STILL a virgin.
thanks to eric! lol.hahahhaa....omg. dont kill me for that.