Been Awhile
I am frozen...Dan doesnt have a job yet..I passed up a day job at my work cause I didnt want to work mornings and and leave my friends...
I got a lot of stuff done last weekend..I got my car and my lights.
I was updating on everyone's journal..and I've come to realize..that I miss that first love..that people feel..when you first meet someone and you have that nervousness and excitement..
I miss it..I miss first love and never knowing what is going to happen next..and lying in bed and holding that new person..I wish I could have that back..I remember when I first met Dan..It was at Splash..I was working all day to help prepare Monkeys stage and I was super ill..and didnt even want to be there..but after I finished running errands and a shower and I showed up with a super cute outfit and went straight for the jungle stage....I had a crush on a few guys at the time and one was at the party and I was trying to get the hookup..but he was too occupied.. so I found my friend Lorance in the jungle tent and we danced and watched djs..and I had caught the eye of a couple guys that night..and ironically Dan's good friend..but me and Dan hit it off right away..we didnt talk forever, we just danced next to each the whole night and enjoyed the music..then he asked me to get some water..and I got free water so I impressed him with my status..and hooked him up... and then we were inseperateable..we cuddled all night and didnt leave each others side until early morning..he helped me get tents down and we exchanged numbers..and he called me later that day and spent the night.....and after that its history..but last summer was sooo awesome...it was summer love, and it was bliss and I miss it..
I feel like an old loveless married couple...nothing new nothing exciting same ole same ole....and I'm worried..this happened to me before..and it ended badly..and I dont want to go down this road...=( I want to brighten up the relationship, before we get married..but I dont know how too...well I hope something happens soon
I got a lot of stuff done last weekend..I got my car and my lights.
I was updating on everyone's journal..and I've come to realize..that I miss that first love..that people feel..when you first meet someone and you have that nervousness and excitement..
I miss it..I miss first love and never knowing what is going to happen next..and lying in bed and holding that new person..I wish I could have that back..I remember when I first met Dan..It was at Splash..I was working all day to help prepare Monkeys stage and I was super ill..and didnt even want to be there..but after I finished running errands and a shower and I showed up with a super cute outfit and went straight for the jungle stage....I had a crush on a few guys at the time and one was at the party and I was trying to get the hookup..but he was too occupied.. so I found my friend Lorance in the jungle tent and we danced and watched djs..and I had caught the eye of a couple guys that night..and ironically Dan's good friend..but me and Dan hit it off right away..we didnt talk forever, we just danced next to each the whole night and enjoyed the music..then he asked me to get some water..and I got free water so I impressed him with my status..and hooked him up... and then we were inseperateable..we cuddled all night and didnt leave each others side until early morning..he helped me get tents down and we exchanged numbers..and he called me later that day and spent the night.....and after that its history..but last summer was sooo awesome...it was summer love, and it was bliss and I miss it..
I feel like an old loveless married couple...nothing new nothing exciting same ole same ole....and I'm worried..this happened to me before..and it ended badly..and I dont want to go down this road...=( I want to brighten up the relationship, before we get married..but I dont know how too...well I hope something happens soon