stuck
I feel stuck. I hate this. My finances suck big time and I can't fuckin leave. I feel I have no life.
Larry-he's not the type to be with someone all the time. he likes his space. i like mine too but this is ridiculous. he works nights i work days. i'm at home he has his 22 yr old staying with him. no matter what theres no privacy plus it irks me that he doesn't mind seeing each other on weekends, once or twice.
mother-and her shit ass boyfriend. i hate when he's here. at least my bitching about him being here when she isn't here finally got through. it felt good to come home from work and enjoy my hour before she gets home. i hate that still makes comments about my ex. get the fuck over it already. she tries to make it sound like her prick is better. so what, i'm not trying to get with my ex. just cuz no one is knocking at either of their doors she's decided to see him again. loneliness can make you do desperate things.
desirae-16 yr old, who is getting on my nerves. sometimes i just wanna throw my hands up and say forget it you think you know about life deal with it, but then i can't cuz she's only 16 and doesn't know any better.
adrian-still a pain in the butt 2 yr old.
me-i look in the mirror and i'm not happy with what i see. i'm not happy with where i'm at in life. every fuckin day i deal with this bullshit and i'm so tired of it. will things ever get better. it certainly doesn't seem like it. i'm stuck and i HATE it. i want my own life away from this fuckin place and i need new people in my life. gawd, i'm hating life right now.
Larry-he's not the type to be with someone all the time. he likes his space. i like mine too but this is ridiculous. he works nights i work days. i'm at home he has his 22 yr old staying with him. no matter what theres no privacy plus it irks me that he doesn't mind seeing each other on weekends, once or twice.
mother-and her shit ass boyfriend. i hate when he's here. at least my bitching about him being here when she isn't here finally got through. it felt good to come home from work and enjoy my hour before she gets home. i hate that still makes comments about my ex. get the fuck over it already. she tries to make it sound like her prick is better. so what, i'm not trying to get with my ex. just cuz no one is knocking at either of their doors she's decided to see him again. loneliness can make you do desperate things.
desirae-16 yr old, who is getting on my nerves. sometimes i just wanna throw my hands up and say forget it you think you know about life deal with it, but then i can't cuz she's only 16 and doesn't know any better.
adrian-still a pain in the butt 2 yr old.
me-i look in the mirror and i'm not happy with what i see. i'm not happy with where i'm at in life. every fuckin day i deal with this bullshit and i'm so tired of it. will things ever get better. it certainly doesn't seem like it. i'm stuck and i HATE it. i want my own life away from this fuckin place and i need new people in my life. gawd, i'm hating life right now.