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i havent done this in along time!
shits bein so messed up! im tryin to get my life back ontrack befor school! im going crazy i cant take all the stress i have in my life! and most of it is because i gotta see my dad on sundays only for 2 hours but i go crazy when i gotta go with him! i have really bad anxiety attacks i get really scared i cant breath when i go with him! i hate it its like going throught hell! and when i get home im even worse because im craby and pissed off! and i fight with everone more with david then anyone! its like i hate it i cant be with anyone any more with out fighting with them! im so in love with davids its fuckin nuts! but i cant bring my self to trust him or not pick fights with him! im always on his ass if he picks up the phone to call someone or takes a walk im so worried that he isnt doing what he says hes doing and its so bad i make myself sick i throw up and cry and i dont stop cryin! sorry guys im tryin to get things off my chest! i need to get my life figured out! i dont even know if i should be with david because i put him throught so much shit! i love him so much and need him! its fuckin crazy! and no guys it aint like fuckin puppy love ive bein with him for 2 years on and off! i gotta go tho im fuckin messed up right now!