i drank enough to almost feel at home right here.
summer's almost done.
it's weird cause i can't decide how i feel about it.
i'm surprisingly really excited for school.
well not the going to class/studying part.
that will fucking suck actually.
but i can't wait to live on my own again because living here makes me want to kill myself.
i'm also really excited to go to football games and parties all the time again.
and i just love ann arbor.
so yeah i actually am pretty excited.
but i'm really worried about being away from friends again.
i know i can handle it and everything and it won't be bad like last year but i just hate ever feeling like i'm not as close to people as i'd like to be.
and that's what i'm worried about because im gonna need to give 120% this year cause my grades sucked so bad last year. and i know that means not talking to like 6 ppl on the phone for an hour everyday and then on aim too. and visiting every weekend. i know i can't do any of that. but i'm gonna try not to worry and just get used to talking more on weekends and planning once in a while to try and visit.
i think it will be ok. i really wanna make an effort with meeting people and friends this year too because even though i already have the best friends i could ask for i really need to have people at school i can count on too.
and i can't get sick so i need to not be stupid either.
i feel a lot more prepared this year too.
emotionally especially because i'm not trying to tell myself anymore that things won't change because they have and they're going to continue to.
so far the changes haven't been too bad and i've still had an amazing summer and seen my friends every day.
i think that's about it.
overall, i'm really excited for welcome week.
it's coming very fast.
it's weird cause i can't decide how i feel about it.
i'm surprisingly really excited for school.
well not the going to class/studying part.
that will fucking suck actually.
but i can't wait to live on my own again because living here makes me want to kill myself.
i'm also really excited to go to football games and parties all the time again.
and i just love ann arbor.
so yeah i actually am pretty excited.
but i'm really worried about being away from friends again.
i know i can handle it and everything and it won't be bad like last year but i just hate ever feeling like i'm not as close to people as i'd like to be.
and that's what i'm worried about because im gonna need to give 120% this year cause my grades sucked so bad last year. and i know that means not talking to like 6 ppl on the phone for an hour everyday and then on aim too. and visiting every weekend. i know i can't do any of that. but i'm gonna try not to worry and just get used to talking more on weekends and planning once in a while to try and visit.
i think it will be ok. i really wanna make an effort with meeting people and friends this year too because even though i already have the best friends i could ask for i really need to have people at school i can count on too.
and i can't get sick so i need to not be stupid either.
i feel a lot more prepared this year too.
emotionally especially because i'm not trying to tell myself anymore that things won't change because they have and they're going to continue to.
so far the changes haven't been too bad and i've still had an amazing summer and seen my friends every day.
i think that's about it.
overall, i'm really excited for welcome week.
it's coming very fast.