Oh ... ho hum ...
I'm feeling pretty perky for it being quarter to 2 in the morning.
I just hope that I'll be able to finish some things tomorrow and do a little work that I overlooked today.
It's a shame to have to come home and get distracted for a week.
Today progressed strangely. It started with a lot of worry and rush to get things done - which turned into a feeling of guilt as I started to let things slide - which turned into being completely cool with the fact that I half-assed everything today.
I'm just glad I don't act like this at school ... EVER ... at least anymore. It's good to be serious about something for yourself. It's good to be serious about cello. I just need to get much much more organized before this summer if I am going to stay home. So many things are up in the air with that one, and I worried about most of those earlier today as well. Right now, though, I feel fine about it. I'll be able to do it if I keep with my ideas and really work on making it all habit over the next month and a half.
Wake up at quarter to 6.
Shower and get ready.
Break into the music building.
Tune your cello.
Eat breakfast.
Practice until class.
I think that as long as I can get myself into the habit of doing that Monday thru Friday, I'll be golden. I'll start to learn repertoire faster just by making everything routine. By starting earlier and splitting up my day more so that I don't get tired by pushing myself at the end of the day to do things.
I'm learning how to practice. And I'm sure this is of no interest to anyone else, but it excites me to think about true progress. Something real ... something that I can hear ... something that other people can see. I want to be a part of everything and achieve and DO things already. Prove myself to my critics, and especially myself.
Yeah, I come to livejournal to give myself a pep talk.
I just need to remember the advice I was given to say something to myself every so often.
So here goes.
I am a badass.
I just hope that I'll be able to finish some things tomorrow and do a little work that I overlooked today.
It's a shame to have to come home and get distracted for a week.
Today progressed strangely. It started with a lot of worry and rush to get things done - which turned into a feeling of guilt as I started to let things slide - which turned into being completely cool with the fact that I half-assed everything today.
I'm just glad I don't act like this at school ... EVER ... at least anymore. It's good to be serious about something for yourself. It's good to be serious about cello. I just need to get much much more organized before this summer if I am going to stay home. So many things are up in the air with that one, and I worried about most of those earlier today as well. Right now, though, I feel fine about it. I'll be able to do it if I keep with my ideas and really work on making it all habit over the next month and a half.
Wake up at quarter to 6.
Shower and get ready.
Break into the music building.
Tune your cello.
Eat breakfast.
Practice until class.
I think that as long as I can get myself into the habit of doing that Monday thru Friday, I'll be golden. I'll start to learn repertoire faster just by making everything routine. By starting earlier and splitting up my day more so that I don't get tired by pushing myself at the end of the day to do things.
I'm learning how to practice. And I'm sure this is of no interest to anyone else, but it excites me to think about true progress. Something real ... something that I can hear ... something that other people can see. I want to be a part of everything and achieve and DO things already. Prove myself to my critics, and especially myself.
Yeah, I come to livejournal to give myself a pep talk.
I just need to remember the advice I was given to say something to myself every so often.
So here goes.
I am a badass.