depressed
I am SOOOOO depressed and I have no idea why. Ok, 2 girls that I grew up with that are my age got married today, and it makes me sooo sad. I feel like we are grown ups now. I always wanted to be an adult, and now I wish I could just stay a kid forever. There are SOOOO many people and friends I have graduated with that are either married, engaged, or have kids. I feel so out of the loop. I have thought and do think of getting married but when I see it all around me, I wonder what the rush is. I remember being little kids with these people in elementary school, and the only worries we had were who we were going to sit at lunch. Now everyone gets married and starts families, and I wish we could go back to how it was. I feel like I am losing everyone around me.This growing up thing is not as easy as I thought it would be.I don't like it one bit! I don't know what my problem is. I know my cousin reads this but, even when she got married, I felt a little sad like I was losing someone very close to me, and their priorities were going to change completely.I had mixed feelings about her getting married. I know this is selfish, but I don't know if I am ready to close this chapter of my life and begin a new one yet.
Ok I am done.
Ok I am done.