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so im about two months into college now. i really love new york. i love everything about it. I miss a few of my friends, naturally. i miss the beach and my dog more than anything. ive been seeing my parents about once every three weeks its turned out. just enough to be independant but just when i start to miss them i get to see them.
i odnt know if this is just me, or if a lot of people feel this when they first start school, but i really dont think im doing that well. i set these high standards for myself and im just not reaching them. i feel not matter how much i study or how much i do i just fall short of my goals everytime. and my parents are just saying its ok dont worry youll get them next time. i dont want them to put me down and say they are dissappointed but at the same time, why arent they as upset as i am. i want to do amazing! i want to be amazing. im working towards being a st johns ambassador. i joined clubs out of the wazoo. im always busy. i got a job, which i LOVE. i dont have time for anything anymore, but i really love it. i miss it all. i have homework to do but i wanted to vent a little. ill be back. but i have so much to say, i dont know who to talk to right now. i have friends but not nearly as the ones in fla. and i really dont want to call.. i dont know. its just a lot right now that i have to sort through. id really like to just see my friends and for them to tell me everythings ok.
i odnt know if this is just me, or if a lot of people feel this when they first start school, but i really dont think im doing that well. i set these high standards for myself and im just not reaching them. i feel not matter how much i study or how much i do i just fall short of my goals everytime. and my parents are just saying its ok dont worry youll get them next time. i dont want them to put me down and say they are dissappointed but at the same time, why arent they as upset as i am. i want to do amazing! i want to be amazing. im working towards being a st johns ambassador. i joined clubs out of the wazoo. im always busy. i got a job, which i LOVE. i dont have time for anything anymore, but i really love it. i miss it all. i have homework to do but i wanted to vent a little. ill be back. but i have so much to say, i dont know who to talk to right now. i have friends but not nearly as the ones in fla. and i really dont want to call.. i dont know. its just a lot right now that i have to sort through. id really like to just see my friends and for them to tell me everythings ok.