life=shit
So lately shit has been shittier than ever. I do not really know what life is for anymore. Lame, because I never really have. I wish I had my c-d player but it is occupied. LAME. Soccer was annoying as all hell last night. I just do not fit in there at all; no matter how well I do, the awesome goal I made, anything like that just OH DOES NOT GET ATTENTION, and is very well not appreciated.
If I don't get my English and Economics grades up I am NOT going to INCUBUS...DEPRESSING AS ALL HELL. I just don't know...
TAKING ON SEVEN YEARS ::saosin::
MY BAND FOREVER> I could so date cove, he is 19 and hott as hell...uhhh not to mention mormon... SUCH A GOOD LITTLE BOY, and a hot one with a good voice at that. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm not sure! (on my chest, the story ends)
I am grounded for life by the cruelty of my own indecision. locked up in a world of confusion. I want to run away and disappear from this shit life. I want to be shut off from reality. All I want anymore is music, the art that leads my life. the discovery of new feelings and dignified heart. Acupuncture was good. I was overly nervous, but it really did calm me down I most definitely loved it. AND STILL want it.
::we might explode::
...I LOVE COVE... I had a dream that Cove was absolutely in love with me. He looked at me and all he saw was pure beauty. (which is how I see him.) God IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE YOU DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT, AND CANNOT HAVE...yeh it definitely fucks with you and your emotions; kind of breaks your heart, especially when you know there isn't a chance out there for that one person to possibly love you as much as you want to love them and want them to love you unconditionally.... LIFE SUCKS
I am in a most unreliant state of life... I don't really get why I have been feeling the way I am feeling. Mainly just thinking and not being able to make sense of what is going on inside of me. I guess that it will come with time, but I like this feeling, it is absolutely mindblowing and breath-stealing. I need to write something to express this loss of normalcy.
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