Hmmm written in the heat of the moment (2 weeks ago)
Ok I wrote this in my journal on September 25th:
So I'm pretty sure everyone has said this before, multiple times even: I have bad luck when it comes to love ... or in my case, lust? I always seem to attract the guys I have no interest in and the ones I'm attracted to have no interest in me, well if they do it's because they wanna get in my pants and it's done. It's my fault that I'm easy, and I put out. Stupid me. My longest relationship was 10 days, and I was peer pressured into it. My friends always tell me that when I find "the one" he'll be perfect for me. I'm kind of finding it hard to believe. I'm 20 years old and haven't had a serious relationship yet, hell one that even lasted a month. Maybe I'm just too picky, or maybe it's the fact that I have a quote unquote guy's mentality. Maybe I should start giving a shit. Yeah, it's just a phase. It'll be over soon. Wise words by Incubus. Sorry. I get easily distracted, ha, and maybe that's the problem? I'm not gonna lie. I have had my handful of one night fucks, fuck buddies, and whatever. My roommate give sme shit for not answering their calls the day after (that is for the ones that do call). #1: Maybe it's because I look at my friends' relationships and listening to their bullshit about breaks and petty fights that makes this whole relationship thing unappealing to me. Then again, I am jealous that they have someone to cuddle with, hug, and care about. Hmmmm. So what's going on in my fuck life ... hmmm. I've had drunk sex 3 times with my coworker. It's not awkward. I swear it's not. Ok maybe just the last time when 10 minutes after I'm watching tv with one of my roomies, and I hear him yelling at his ex about her cheating on him 2 years ago. Now that's dysfunctional. #2: I don't like messes. I need to stop with that. Maybe I'll just fuck around with his best friend. Yeah, I think that'll work. Then, he can flirt more with my roommate. Why does this bug me? Oh no, am I starting to care? Seriously fuck this shit. Fuck being in love. Fuck making love. Fuck him. I'd rather just fuck.
So I'm pretty sure everyone has said this before, multiple times even: I have bad luck when it comes to love ... or in my case, lust? I always seem to attract the guys I have no interest in and the ones I'm attracted to have no interest in me, well if they do it's because they wanna get in my pants and it's done. It's my fault that I'm easy, and I put out. Stupid me. My longest relationship was 10 days, and I was peer pressured into it. My friends always tell me that when I find "the one" he'll be perfect for me. I'm kind of finding it hard to believe. I'm 20 years old and haven't had a serious relationship yet, hell one that even lasted a month. Maybe I'm just too picky, or maybe it's the fact that I have a quote unquote guy's mentality. Maybe I should start giving a shit. Yeah, it's just a phase. It'll be over soon. Wise words by Incubus. Sorry. I get easily distracted, ha, and maybe that's the problem? I'm not gonna lie. I have had my handful of one night fucks, fuck buddies, and whatever. My roommate give sme shit for not answering their calls the day after (that is for the ones that do call). #1: Maybe it's because I look at my friends' relationships and listening to their bullshit about breaks and petty fights that makes this whole relationship thing unappealing to me. Then again, I am jealous that they have someone to cuddle with, hug, and care about. Hmmmm. So what's going on in my fuck life ... hmmm. I've had drunk sex 3 times with my coworker. It's not awkward. I swear it's not. Ok maybe just the last time when 10 minutes after I'm watching tv with one of my roomies, and I hear him yelling at his ex about her cheating on him 2 years ago. Now that's dysfunctional. #2: I don't like messes. I need to stop with that. Maybe I'll just fuck around with his best friend. Yeah, I think that'll work. Then, he can flirt more with my roommate. Why does this bug me? Oh no, am I starting to care? Seriously fuck this shit. Fuck being in love. Fuck making love. Fuck him. I'd rather just fuck.