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i feel like theres so much going on. if i could just be a little stressed maybe that would be better.
anyways so much to prepare for for my test tomorrow. and then just two papers to think about. i think i just need to sit down and figure out when to do what so ill actually do it.
but im happy that once class is over and after work itll be weekend, which came so fast, i cant believe it.
but yeah so in addition to my office job im going to be watching/tutoring/playing with this third grade after school on monday tuesday and thursday which im sooooo happy about. i think itll be really good and itll help me stay on track with my hours at the office and i could use the extra cash.
im looking forward to this lent, i think it could be quite fruitful and im grateful that bill will be able to help me. actually im really grateful for him.
ive been going nonstop all day today and now that i can stop i realize its past midnight which means its not february 7 anymore and so in what seems like an instance it's over, i never let myself stop and think that a year ago, on the seventh, my grandpa passed away. i dont think it's forced, i know i made that choice to keep myself busy to avoid my sorrows, but i probably couldn't really handle thinking about it on that day so i think it was also Willed to be busy, not a moment to spare, to realize, to think about this.
it happens so quickly, it seems so distant. thinking about him brings so much joy, but it twists into sorrow. i just want to hug him. i want to go back. rewind. rewind. rewind. but i cant. i cant. just release these tears. i miss him. a lot. and i get so afraid. i feel so small. and broken. i just want to know it's okay. i just want to hug him and know it's okay. it's okay. i just.. i dont know. just sad i guess. i just want a hug...
anyways so much to prepare for for my test tomorrow. and then just two papers to think about. i think i just need to sit down and figure out when to do what so ill actually do it.
but im happy that once class is over and after work itll be weekend, which came so fast, i cant believe it.
but yeah so in addition to my office job im going to be watching/tutoring/playing with this third grade after school on monday tuesday and thursday which im sooooo happy about. i think itll be really good and itll help me stay on track with my hours at the office and i could use the extra cash.
im looking forward to this lent, i think it could be quite fruitful and im grateful that bill will be able to help me. actually im really grateful for him.
ive been going nonstop all day today and now that i can stop i realize its past midnight which means its not february 7 anymore and so in what seems like an instance it's over, i never let myself stop and think that a year ago, on the seventh, my grandpa passed away. i dont think it's forced, i know i made that choice to keep myself busy to avoid my sorrows, but i probably couldn't really handle thinking about it on that day so i think it was also Willed to be busy, not a moment to spare, to realize, to think about this.
it happens so quickly, it seems so distant. thinking about him brings so much joy, but it twists into sorrow. i just want to hug him. i want to go back. rewind. rewind. rewind. but i cant. i cant. just release these tears. i miss him. a lot. and i get so afraid. i feel so small. and broken. i just want to know it's okay. i just want to hug him and know it's okay. it's okay. i just.. i dont know. just sad i guess. i just want a hug...