Love is the answer, at least for most the questions in my heart.
ive been thinking. i really want to get in touch with that which is bigger than me. i am so fascinated by time, eternity, fate, free will. it's all so peculiar isn't it? Cant really get it, cant put my finger on it, just think of it, just wonder.
i also really want to learn all about the Catholic and Jewish faith and how they parallel each other so perfectly.
i feel so happy, like i really know what im going to do. im going to hopefully be an art studies major and focus on painting and acting. or if not then for sure focus on painting and get acting training by other means, and then be an artist who acts haha. it seems so ridiculous. but i talked to my theatre teacher about acting, i talked to my parents about painting. their support makes me so reassured that yes this is what i will do. and for a second i look at it from the outside and think "how silly. what a dreamer you are." and then i think "yes, it is silly. and yes i am a dreamer. and yes i will go pursue it" cause i know this is what makes me happy. when im acting out the truest part of me through a character. when im smearing paint around. i feel free, i feel calm, like the whole world slows down...