Staring now, staring then, at that face - i'll see never again
i walked into the gloomy funeral home repeating to myself that i wasnt going to shed one tear.
i walked inside the room where bobb's body lay and i held back tears rushing to my eyes.
not one tear fell.
i wont cry.
i wouldnt cry.
not infront of bobb that is.
that was like one of the last things that bobb would want to see - his closest friends broken down and crying.
so i did him that one last favor and didnt cry.
even though what lay in that casket did not look at all like him.
a clay model i'd say.
that would have to be one of the main reasons why i didnt cry either.
i didnt want to cry at the sight of something that looked like a manican.
but it wasnt something - it was him, as badly as it did not resemble him, it was him.
it was bobb.
it's all that is left of him that is - his soul still dwells though where ever he pleases.
but the only reason why they put so much make up on him is he was just in bad shape.
ill miss him so much.
i just still havent got the grasp on the fact that he is gone and he'll never be coming back.
it hasnt hit me yet.
but when it does..when it does..
*sigh*.
im not going to go on.
i didnt go to school today, something told me not to go, maybe it's just not time for me to go back and face the facts.
i dont know.
...
bye.
Later
Joey
i walked inside the room where bobb's body lay and i held back tears rushing to my eyes.
not one tear fell.
i wont cry.
i wouldnt cry.
not infront of bobb that is.
that was like one of the last things that bobb would want to see - his closest friends broken down and crying.
so i did him that one last favor and didnt cry.
even though what lay in that casket did not look at all like him.
a clay model i'd say.
that would have to be one of the main reasons why i didnt cry either.
i didnt want to cry at the sight of something that looked like a manican.
but it wasnt something - it was him, as badly as it did not resemble him, it was him.
it was bobb.
it's all that is left of him that is - his soul still dwells though where ever he pleases.
but the only reason why they put so much make up on him is he was just in bad shape.
ill miss him so much.
i just still havent got the grasp on the fact that he is gone and he'll never be coming back.
it hasnt hit me yet.
but when it does..when it does..
*sigh*.
im not going to go on.
i didnt go to school today, something told me not to go, maybe it's just not time for me to go back and face the facts.
i dont know.
...
bye.
Later
Joey