reason from lack of writing
there has been a lull in my ramblings. I can't write cause feelings are to few and far between. I'm numb to an extent, I feel nothing for anything outside of two things. One makes me happy the other, the reason i'm numb, makes my heart hurt and I cry just from the sight of my team or hockey in general. it hurts that it was taken from me and for what seems like no reason. why bring me all this way to just leave me out to dry one month shy of completing 5 years of my life. I have very little inspiration to do anything constructive with my life at the moment. I am just watching life pass me by plain and simple. I need to will myself out of this. But it just hurts beyond anything I can imagine. bare with me.bare with myself.